i was tinkin abt ___ e whole bus journey. was wif e ds sec 3 ppl @ jec eatin den we started tokin abt ___ cos i was saein sh is onli @ ___'s shoulder. lol. den dey start tokin abt his family n i realised his family is so complicated. dun tok much. its nt gd 2 tok abt ppl.

duno since when i despise e qn 'y?'. mayb ish cos im asked it too often. mayb cos im scared of havin 2 lie if i hav 2 xplain. mayb.. sths jst cant b reasoned. mayb all of e abve? styms nt all thins hav a reason. styms e reason ish illogical. styms truth jst cant b told. when dese tyms occur.. dun ask. dun ignore. jst do wat e person wana u 2 do..if u treat dem s frens..if u trust dem..den dey wldn harm u. styms ppl jst nid another person dere 2 listen or 2 take deir minds off stuff. styms if u dun feel lyk doin sum stuff u shd tell ppl nicely. styms it hurts when ur too frank. hw can i possibly tell u a whole list of thins tts happenin 2 mi? all i can sae ish im unhappy/depressed/sad/pissed. n when u sae dis too mani tyms it bcum a routine n jst aint convincin enuff. ppl'll den tink u lie.

y muz evrythin hav a purpose? styms thins cant b explained in a logical way. styms dere's no way anythins gona make u xplain. styms reasons jst aint available evn 2 urself. wat purpose can i hav? if u feel i hav a purpose..den wat kinda fren r u..or tt since when did u evr treated mi s a fren? im jst some1 trepassin ur life wif mi childishness n leavin agn w/o leavin a trace.

when ppl do evrythin 4 a reason..dey jst aint pure anymore.