Life Sux Guys Sux

k. mayb i shd hav gotten ova dis readi. budden..its so untrue. i c him evrydae n c him bcum happier n c him bein slpy in class n c him plaein soccer n c him at the bus stop n c him evrywher n c him n c him c him c him c him. tts lyk so nt mi 2 spot a person @ 1 glance. wth. nvm. he looks so much happier dis wk while its lyk my worst wk. gtin 2 noe too much things ish NO gd. evrythins gonna b alrite s lon s hes happie. rite? no way..

i feel damn depressed. interact stuff. busy busy busy. wrk until 6++ evrydae. gt scoldings, scoldings and MORE shoutings. rch hm 8+ evrydae. no1 2 tok 2. no1 cares. its lyk a routine when i gt hm so damn tired i go rite 2 bed. wake up in e mornin n pia hw in class n den try not 2 slp in class. cant tok abt evrythin 2 1 person. cant sae im sad. cant sae im depressed. cant sae im unhappie. still muz act happie in case ppl sae i act depressed. y? i feel so damn dwn. n some1 has 2 thrash mi w wrds. i hav enuff.

its lyk 1 whole wk n u muz tink i hav gtten ova it rite? no way. its lyk..such a humiliation 2 me. saein im actin n tts y no1 blieves mi n all. jst sae YOU dun blieve me n tt u tink im actin. isnt tt enuff? wth. n mi havin 2 apologise cos i dun wanna b hated? tts lyk wtf lahhs.. n u are obviously still tinkin tt ur rite. u MAY b 4 my own gd budden NO. ur hideously wron 2 hurt som1 hu trusted u n thrash e person w ur wrds jst when im @ e lowest pt of my life.

suicidal tots r bcumin more n more recent 2 mi. im startin 2 consider ways of suicidal evry now n den i rch somewher wher suicide is possible. 1 dae when i gt e apology i wan. it will b e lst thin i sae. it'll b nvm. its alrite. if i nvr manage 2 sae gdbye 1 dae..rmbr..dun feel sad. stay happie k?