I M HaTed...

haiz...s u can c fr e headin...i jus foun out i m hated!!!
went sum1's blog...criticise mi lyk siao...althou nt onli mi n mi name nt stated...
noe tt i nt lyk by evry1...budden...dis 1 came s a veh big shock...

losin out...
dunno y...budden i feel lotsa thins happenin fast...arun mi...
i cant stand e stress...

tok abt cls 1st...
1) cleaniness...evrythin bcums my fault...juz bcuz im e cm.
2) mr chng may b leavin us 2 teach sec3 cls nxt wk....boohoohoo :'( he's so swt...
3) tsts cumin...nida study hard
4) win in our cls...nice budden childish guy(no offence). howeva gurls in e whole skl's MAD & CRAZ ova him! kip cumin our cls c him...quite irritated...
5) sum ppl in cls quite fake...pretend lyk u budden bacstab u...
6) etc...

den still got lvl
1. ppl dun lyk mi...criticise mi
2. ppl tink i veh flirt
3. sum1 tot i lyk flirt wif her crush
4. fakers
5. cant stand sum ppl

cca
#1 seniors lyk dun reali lyk mi
#2 diff 2 interact wif juniors...s if i dinosaur will eat dem up...
#3 syf cumin...scared...happy...excited...nervous... gold wif honours
#4 c him flirt...
#5 rumours...

& still got summor lor...i cant rmb rite now...budden dis is enuff...4 mi...@ e moment...
sumtyms...evrytym...alwaes...feel lyk breakin dwn...
i dunno y...budden feel lyk mayb if i can fin sum1 i reali trust...him...or mayb a her...hu can understand mi probs, i can tell him/her n den i can totally break dwn & cry & scream & i dunno...
wanna curl up...in a small corner in skl...2 cry...cry...cry...reali cry...n wanna him 2 comfort mi...even if fr a frenz' view...i dun mind...i juz nid concern...real concern...y cant he juz care mor? all he rmbs is her...i wonder if he got lie when he sae he dun lyk her liao...i tink he got new dui4 xiang4...if not is still tt her...
n her...so ming2 xian3 she lyks him...she's puttin across e msg tt dey r meant 2 b 2gether...budden he dun lyk her le...i can c so...a bit...i dunno....she wanna attract his attention...

prezzie 4 her...
her bdae cumin...1 of his closest frens wan her fren 2 help him buy her a prezzie...budget <$40...
sae if not e rest of dem dun pay up...it's so ming2 xian3 tt e rest of dem means e other 3...including him...tt means arun $10 each....n i doubt dey...esp him even noe when's mi bdae...haiz

i wish i am

pearls from that necklace

beads from that bracelet

hanging from your neck

your wrist

going everywhere you go

the warmth of your body

against mine

your heartbeat

controlling mine

me

hugging you

tightly

wishing i am yours

your only possession

i noe i luv u

or at least i tink so