My MUGGER Diary :D

2007-08-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

my 101th entry in dis blog. formerly declare changed 2 ebloggy. =D
http://pointe-ribbons-and-the-stage.ebloggy.com/

2007-08-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

watched ALONE w sihui jst nw!!!
hahas. XD
was quite a sudden thing n costed like S$9.50 bt all's worth cos turned out 2b nt 1 of dose plotless, scare-ppl-4-e-sake-of-makin-a-horror-movie kinda horror movie. hahas. was rly unexpected, touching, moving & obviously nice :DDD
pim & ploy, wee, e mum...i cant say hus rite hus wrong. pim & ploy r jst 2 similar in character...both r jst too selfish... haix...no one's fault. =X
u noe s u watch e movie...its like u c e other view 2 e whole story n stuff...4gt wat u call tt...lit students shd noe?
e final irony is tt...it was ploy hu wanted dem both 2 die tgt rather den seperated...n dey did die tgt...onli she wasnt tt willin in e end...
sihui suggested it b named 'together ever after' instead.hahas

hahas. enuff of e movie. its a must-watch k :P
ohya...gt dis THIS FASHION sale outside westmall...was sorta a clearance sale i tink...hahas...me n sihui bought e same white halter shirt which she saw first....real unique n nice :DD i tink i wearing tt 4 springs' concert XD n e gd thin is we gt tt 4 S$3 each :DDDD
n i saw dis nice shorts w a vry nice string-ey kinda belt. S$22. rly like it. mayb shall ask mum out for shopping? hahahas.

recently i've developed a wishlist. im sure u can fulfill some :D
1. nice english songs
2. new pointe shoes
3. white off-shoulder blouse
4. new all-occasion dress/skirt
5. finish my hwk
6. get a bf (ya i noe i sound despo bt i can assure u im nt =D)
7. tiara ring (tiara nt so much crown (:)
8. necklace (i still wanting tt 缘 necklace i liked bt gav s present...)
9. crystal/glass ornaments XD
10. wake up earlier in the morning
11. start doin tys
12. start revising!
13. L1R5<10!
14. beads.
15. time 2 make beaded necklaces/earrings/bracelets/anklets etc
16. sell some of e beaded stuff...
17. not break my promise of making beaded necklace for yishi
18. go out w fren(s)
19. become pretty
20. read more books (so pls lend me some nice bks..)
21. get slimmer
22. dance well
23. not get kidney disease...pls...
24. be healthy
25. gt rid of my gastric/stomach/digestive system problem
26. ppl i dun like dun do things i dun like dem 2 do agn

note: colourcoded XD
pink - stuff u can hlp me w...
orange - stuff tt need $$ 2 get...
purple - can only happen w my own effort
green - mre or less nt w/in my control =X

2007-08-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

还要我等多久一分两分一天两天过

还有多几步距离才够拉开沉默

我们就这样不愿说放手

永无止境地等对方先开口

一步两步向左向右走

拖着手数星空

似近似离却不忍松手

不敢面对

我想我还是认了吧
看你和她说笑快乐比和我多
我想我还是说了吧
自尊也许还会有所保留
当我将对你说出令人心痛的文字
请你帮帮我
不要对我太过温柔

baby
还要有多几次话到嘴边将又被吞落
到最后会否还在等你开口

comment abt e lyrics.
actually i sorta like e first part only XD

2007-07-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

u noe...actually im nt angry w u....its mre of frustration k...haix.....
tink back 2 like start of e yr....e times when we always quarrel ovr small things....despite all tt....its nvr like nw. at least tt period of time i cld feel tt u cared la....u cared 4 e friendship...u cared a bit 4 me too...u tried 2 explain. but do u still anymre?
when i used 2 feel sad, used 2 cry....u comforted me. do u still? u dun evn bother 2 giv a glance in my way nw... or isit tt it's been out of prac cos i haven cried 4 too long? lols.
i jst wan 2 feel cherished....dun take me 4 granted... =X

read previous entry too

BAD day...

2007-07-16T00:01:00.000+08:00

okays...2 start it all off...supposed went out w sihui, des, edi, judith, kelvin, serming 2 watch harry potter 5 at lot1. was a bit l8 but sihui's evn later so i decided 2 wait 4 her...waited mre den an hr den sihui tell me go buy tix myself cos des dey all tot i nt gg cos of some misunderstanding den nvr buy my tix. went 2 tix booth...ard 1150 liao...e movie starts at 1130 la...um...guess im nt dumb enuff 2 miss prt of e movie :)

so i went 2 lib n read bks...4 ard 1.5hrs ba...nt too sure...den i decide 2 take a walk cos e movie shd b ending sn....den was walkin e lib PA sounded saying 'can ng qi wei pls cum 2 e counter nw. can ng qi wei pls cum 2 e counter nw.' man...im nt racist bt e pronounciation rly suck man....wth...sound super like my name sia...since i was walkin out so i jst went 2 e counter den dey ask 4 my name i was like 'ng jin hwee' den dey ask 'did u lose anything?' den i saw e name on e lib card dey were holding n it was like 'ng QI WEI'...wth...so i went 'no no no tts nt mine' n walked out of e door....pew....

aft a while joined sihui dey all 4 lunch....fast forward....

rched edi's hse...e doggie vry cute...played w it.....fastforward smmore....WALAU....I GOT SEXUALLY HARRASSED BY A CASTRATED DOG! n e dog kip chasin aft me n grabbin my leg!!! lick my leg all ovr smmore....man JJ's super se4 lah...shant go into details.....n i cut my left foot little toe accidentally while runnin ard tryin 2 escape frm him....

forward forward....went BBQ pit....played w sihui...kicked her shoe accidentally so it fell n was floating on e pool. decided 2 lessen my guilt by retrieving it 4 her. so pulled up my jeans n stepped in n realised e pool's deeper den i tot....so soaked my jeans lor....forward a bit mre....

finally set up fire. tearing open e wire mesh...cut my right thumb...

n i had 2 face real erxin scenes tt i dun wan c...

thx serming 4 being a gr8 company. frens?
2 baby: if u wan 2 b frens agn aft u're rdy 2 face e things i expect/want frm a fren. we can alwys b frens agn. sry bt if u haven realised u r treating me lots different frm when u used 2 treat me. lets say....since seating arrangement change? lets say u nvr evn fit e minimum nw...sry byz... n if u like her pls go stead...i prob wldn b happy (nt jealousy thou ((:) bt pls dun ai4 mei4 n PDA. its gross. sry...im exceptionally sensitive. ohh...n dun wry...my feelings aint w u anymre...actually i dun tink its w anyone nw...

2007-07-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

lalala...cant say whether tday is happy or suay day....hm...was RLY quite suay lor..hahas (:

i gt minor injuries for like at least 4 times i tink. bump here bump dere... lols. so clumsy rite? hahas (: lols. no wounds at least.

ohya...tday gt speech day rehearsal lors...den drag drag drag until quite late lahs...nvm...at least went 2 eat (: yaya...rehearsal...DAMN SUAY! lols. e band members...or rather some band member emptied his saliva ON THE STAGE! wth....tot i wldn step on it la....den cos nvr wear specs oso cant c anything clearly...its like....wth...dance halfway...sth wet on my sole....WTH...I STEPPED RIGHT ON THE SALIVA MAN! & im 100% sure my face twitched or sth LOLs. instantaneously lololol :DDDD n 200% sure i made at least another saliva mark on the floor when i moved my feet...eek...tt stage gt like saliva spread ard...

PE made me decided tt im nvr gg change my mind abt nt liking 2 PLAY soccer. watching is okay la...but dun ask me play...thou can burn lots fats (((: lols.

n i tnk i decided on wat 2 wear 4 dance fantasia....i hate gg out w juniors n frens hu im nt so close w...cos cant ovrdress...haha....tshirt+jeans=underdress. hahas....sian...white tanktop+white skirt+denim jacket. looks REAL GOOD. hahaha....but cos of all e white...looks like im gg 4 some wedding dinner....argh....mayb i shd tnk agn...
i want go shopping! but i promised/vowed/sweared to MUG.....)))):

2007-06-27T00:28:00.001+08:00

ok...i deleted e past 2 posts.
for dose hu suay-ly happened 2 read n feel super duper unforgivably offended. all i can say is sry. still feel offended? too bad...nth i can say. nt in e entertainment mode =X

omg...i wan 2 slp. i slpt like total 5 hrs dese 2 days...tmr's rehearsal, thurs preview, fri performance. n ohya...sth happened at last run of SOB tday...too lazy 2 type. if u wan noe can ask me :X

dis is stupid. y m i nt slping? lols :D
ohya...jst a reminder: I NEVER LIKED, DON'T LIKE AND WILL NOT LIKE ZC :D

2007-06-24T15:24:00.000+08:00

this suck. WTF man...
does anyone know e stress im feeling?
n its all frm YOU!
U hu insist evrything u do is for me
U hu tot u tink for me
U hu tot u didn giv me any stress
U hu tot u're doing me a favor
i nvr denied ur doing things for my sake
but can u consider e stress u're implying on me?
wtf..
y cant u all jst tink in my place
wtf
wtf wtf wtf
im tired k
i can jst jump off a building n DIE
den u wldn hav 2 wry abt me anymre.
GOOD? good.

2007-06-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

this suck man
im back 2 feelin emo
shant type e list here. agn.

'sometimes it feels noone understands. i dont evn noe y i do the things i do"
-Journey

i tink tt describes it smhw....

for all i know i may go back to disliking dance =X

2007-06-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

lolololol :D
hahaha...i cant stop laughing. im updating this cos cheryl FORCES me to update. (so evil right? haha)

bleh...i think being sick make cheryl in a SO-MUCH-BETTER/HYPER mood. lol. im e one suffering k :/ hahas.

hm...i shall talk abt dance tday cos i tot it was interesting. hahas.
sulao was damn lame tday lor....he came in dance rm in a super high mood (so like cheryl. lol ;)) w like 2 big bags full of orchids...
[fast forward...]
k. here come e lame part tt makes e highlight of e day though. LOL. so he was asking some of e sec4 zhuilang gals hlp him do duno wat w the orchids n they were all sitting in front of him n e empty boxes n e BIG bags of orchids sorting them outing den he VERY suddenly went (i shall b nice n not reveal names. hahahaha...) "X, u like Y arh?" *stunned* n all e sec 4 girls stoned n laughed...lol. as if its nt enuff he went "i also heard tt A, B n C are snatching D. wah...4 ppl can play mahjong liao". *stone* (did i hear my name?) hahaha....walau....he super high aft tt can...den he went "P dun hav de la. i noe she only likes me"....ERM.....ER....MM....hahahaha....
ay so not true can....WALAU....P is e MOST OBVIOUS PERSON CAN?!?! ai4 mei4 lor....lol
n as if all tts nt enuff...half way thru zou3 tai2 wei4 he suddenly say 2 me "jinhwee move out some more...y...thinking of * arh?" LOL :D i no comments lor...dudiao...hahaha...walau....leave me alone can...i inno de lor... :D:D P/I/N/E/A/P/P/L/E = taking life s it is :DDD
k...enuff of dance...FINALE was FUN! haha...i like tt tchr sia. :P vry nice...n it was a stressful day for me cos haven danced soundofbliss quite some time le...a month?
HAHA :D ONE MORE THING! dawn n huishan keep laughin at me tday. vry distracting de lor ;p

ANNOUNCEMENT! NOTE!
dont believe cheryl when she says i love her :D

To: dearest cheryl,
i've set a love trap for u, my lovely girl but dun fall into it. ;p im taken :D HAHAHA

ohh...remind me i promise to LOOK at cheryl tmr
HAHAHA LOL ;p

take my test!

2007-06-18T03:54:00.000+08:00

LOL. i nvr like anyone le. serious :))

Create your own Friend Test here

try that!

<3

2007-06-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

i crush/infatuate/like him
i jst cant stop thinking of him these few days
like evn when im at home he's always on my mind
how?

camp camp camps....

2007-06-05T10:19:00.000+08:00

will be away for 2 camps dis wk.
anw i feel like abandonin dis blog cos noone excpt laetitia reads it.
haha. i vry bad. go dance camp late =)
so tired man.... (:
stretch camp 07.....lalala....watevr. sian diao liao.

sweettalk! pay-it-forward.....

2007-05-16T19:33:00.000+08:00

i like sweettalk.

ask me y i like sweettalk?
it always provides me w e right taste (:
mmm-hmmm....yummy
giv u an example...tt time i ate mango sunrise w mummy n i tot e mango icecream was special, fragrant, nice...
den i was lookin & cravin 4 e taste. so i decided 2 try mango milkshake frm sweettalk & TA-DA! its tt taste i was lookin 4!!!
haha so i became addicted 2 mango milkshake 4 a while...
den tt time i decide 2 try deir redtea...so i ordered peppermint red tea...
aft tt i decided peppermint redtea tt day had too much peppermint in it. u jst cant taste e red tea.
tday i decided 2 try my luck agn. so i ordered peppermint red tea & TA-DA AGAIN! heres peppermint red tea w less peppermint but taste refreshing s well. n i can taste e red tea!
WOW!! love sweettalk =]

jinn's loves frm sweettalk:

1) peppermint red tea - light & refreshing. not so fatty too!
4 * [1/2 deducted for e not-so-good taste when wrong proportion used ;P]

2) oreo chocolate - good if u like a heavy rich tasty chocolate taste!
4*

3) mango milkshake - fruity. but dey make it a bit too sweet usually =X
3 1/2 * [1/2 deducted for too sweet & fats in milk! lol]

4) champagne grape yoghurt - nice sour grapey taste =) gd if u can take & like sour stuff :P
3 1/2 * [sometimes too sweet. normally e proportion jst isnt rite n it tastes too heavy]

5) honeydew milk tea - fruity melon taste blended w e taste of milk tea. probably gd if u like milk tea.
3 * [1/2 deducted for e fact tt milktea is not my cup of tea. 1/2 for the fact tt milk is fatty! argh!]

LALALA...seriously....try red tea for a change frm all dose iceblends, oreo series n milktea [:

ohya....
u noe e PAY-IT-FORWARD thingy?
so tday aft sch kok, shuen, kai, xiaojun, sihui, lemin, bin, yang & me went ziyi's hse. den i left a bit earlier den others....6 like tt cos i sian nth do mahs...den i nvr realised i dun hav coins n my card no $$ lah....
so i rchin busstop le den realise n i panicked....so decided 2 try my luck ask ppl if dey gt coins....
so i approached dis kind looking lady dressed like a office lady, sitting @ e busstop n asked if she gt coins...she said she dun hav enuff....s in $2 worth of coins....to change w me so she gave me e 50c unconditionally instead! man...i was touched..! haha...i mst hav looked like she's my life-saver when i thanked her man...
den on 963 i saw dis old lady hu gt up at e same busstop as me....n kindness jst touch my heart...so i decided 2 do sth 4 e old lady but nth i can do cos no one gav up a seat lah....so aft e old lady got a seat i decided 2 b nice n hlp her take her stuff left on e floor cos ppl are movin n she cant rched it. haha....i noe its lame but at least i did sth gd i tink =]
kays....im happy. =]

2007-04-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

looks like noone reads my blog...but doesnt matter la...i like spending time tokin 2 myself ;))
things 2 do aft midyrs:
1) change my blogskin duh...
2) get my tagboard up duh...
3) advertise my blog =X
4) reflect den mugg mre for prelims...

dese few days i had a gd time mugging w fellow muggers frm 4c...mst jiayou liao....look like i behind time agn. i regret tt poor preparation 4 my SS paper lah...come out i crapp 4 EVERYthing agn lor hor.....so no use all tt time studying....pray hard....pass pls....

i like studying w ppl....lib nt my fav place but it aint tt bad too...despite a few distractions...i manage 2 accomplish sth...at least i gt started 2 skim my way thru most of the stuff lah huh...
ohya....tday went je lib w e bunch of 4c ppl....ziyi yisheng jolene chunyin bingyang lemin weishuen den gt extra szekiat...starting 2 gt a bit irritated w ppl making lots of noise...both frm our grp n others....sian....so i was like distracted distracted but managed a bit of geog. den jiamin came den i vry happy went sit bside jiamin n kajiao dear bingyang a while...lol...until e lit ppl gt so irritated w me...haha....n gt dis chocs feast in front of me lah....toblerone dark chocs, hershey dark chocs, m&ms... den i distracted doin a bit of geog...mstly lookin ard...den saw dis i tink nanhua guy bah...blue tee...den hes lookin my way oso....nt bad lah...jst i not despo enuff 2 jio ppl n go manhunt in lib yet...lol

i tink my HCL P1 essay is coming true...a bit scary arh...

2007-04-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

jst some random post...YAY! sound of bliss's ROCKED UCC stage 23042007!
i <3 all dancers :D
<3 all musicians of bliss =D
we jst created yet another miracle!
im not e best dancer, not evn a gd one. e dance doesnt suit me n i dun suit e dance. but no matter wat.... I LOVE SOB!
ohya...tmr's results. hope we get pizzas!
lalala....in a celebrative mood!
looking 4wrd 2 gg back 2 horizon 2 rehearse 4 new performance!
pray hard i get in e items...... :S
& i wish i can get ard changing dis blogskin soon
LOL

2007-04-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

GO: www.baidu.com
search for lyrics for e song 听海[ting1 hai3] by 张惠妹[A-Mei]
look at the first chorus =] love it XD

2007-04-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

haiyah....im sick & tired u know?
if u cant be bothered to solve that issue between us or that u think it aint important to u then nevermind lor. forget it. i guess im too tired of getting angry, irritated & everything with u le lahs.

sigh..
u know arh...no matter how much i try to pretend to be like a guy, i know ive got a gals mind, a gals emotions, a gals sensitivity. im just one typical gal who wants to be protected & cared for. i want people to pamper me, to try to cheer me up when im unhappy and all that stuff. but did anyone ever care? thats why i say so many so called friends just look at the most superficial surfacial context. all they see will be my cheerfulness, maybe my stress, maybe the unhappiness i show. how many times. just how many times have i spent an unhappy day ALONE without anyone observant enough to care for me? how many times. just how many times have u seen through my looked-like-tired face to see that im unhappy? and how many times when im unhappy have u bothered why im unhappy and try to cheer me up? deep down inside i know im the most sensitive gal. so afraid of being hurt. so scared of being hated. and thats why im what i look like. and do u who i thought was one of my best friends know whats the true me? do u know that everytime im angry its true anger and everytime i cry theyre tears kept too long and not formed just in a day?
do u understand all ive said at all?

2007-03-24T23:18:00.000+08:00

YAY! started grade SE7EN today!
lalala. super happy kays XD
& Elaine gave us TWO gd news!

1) Mr Ferrer wants us to do exams nxt yr!
a.k.a complete e 2yrs syllabus in ONE yr!
HALF the time! he says he tinks we can do it!!

2) Mr Ferrer thinks we can do a bit of pointe work!!
YAY!! dream come true! LOL.
Elaine says we'll probably be starting one mth later!

MY HAPPY DAY!!
be as happy as me :D
wonder when my grade SIX results will be out :?

2007-01-26T21:38:00.000+08:00

MS dora lee toked abt a RAG DOLL tday.
lol. she was lyk: "u know wats a rag doll?"
den she imitated a rag doll lah....LOL.

fine. im jst super sian diao lah...
not in a super good mood....somethings troubling (:

haha. i edited e post =]

2007-01-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

honey. im so tired of being angry.
so tired of being disappointed.
so tired of wanting 2 b part of ur life.
too much of anythin makes u sick.
too much of nth makes me vomit.
my honey my gor gor.
i will not love him.
i will love him forever.
& im not contradicting myself.

2007-01-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

if u do come n read this is for a certain person.
makin me dis angry w u cant b done in jst 1 or 2 days.
i nid 2 b respected too. i hate it when u dun bother abt e things i told u.
i hate it when u dun tink seriously abt stuff i told u.
i hate it when u r such a superficial person.
i hate being treated like a fool.
i hate it when u seem so blind 2 e things ard u.
i hate it when im always e person toking
i hate u knowing so much abt me when i duno u at all.
i hate makin myself look so weak in front of u.
i hate crying like a baby.
mst of all i hate being angry & disappointed with u.
sadly tts wat i'm feeling vry strongly now.
believe it or not, evrythin i tok 2 u abt is half abt u.
i've got nothing 2 lose.
if u prefer returnin 2 e starting pt s a normal fren den b it.
i can grant ur wish.
i dun nid 2 always feel like an idiot.

2007-01-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

i hereby formally declare:

I AM TRUELY ANGRY & DISAPPOINTED

- although i always say i'm angry

i always forgive the next day.

this time i'm really feel so pissed.

- if everytime i say anything

u refuse to take it seriously or

think through it then fine

i can always stop telling anything

- it's all about u. i have nothing to lose.

I AM NOWHERE NEAR 'J'. I'M A TYPICAL 'P'

- I don't look like i do things in advance

Do I? I still owe HCL holiday homework

I AM A QUARTER ENLIGHTENED

- U always say that

"The day when i cannot make u angry

is the day u are half enlightened"

- U can't make me angry

by physical means now

- Attitude wise still remains

I GOT CAUGHT DURING SPOTCHECK

- The funny thing is why i got caught

- Conversation:

-> Tchr: [skim through] Ur socks.

-> Student: [look down] (thinks: vry low meh?)

-> Tchr: It's too old.

-> Student: (SHOCKED!)

-> Tchr: [signals to chairperson]

-> Chairperson: [writes dwn 'socks' beside name]

-> Student: [feels a sudden gust of cold wind]

Sometimes u just have to wonder how life gets so ridiculous...

2007-01-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

only babies cry.
i am a baby.
life is startin 2 feel so nt worth livin for.
i hav no choice no decision ovr e things ard me.
its all startin 2 suck mre den evr.
evry single dae filled w tears.
no. i will nt b angry w any1.
it all boils dwn 2 mi n jst mi.
i jst wish e end of e wrld cn cum sn.
take me away frm dis wrld

2007-01-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

i cried again.
sec4 life seems to be so tough. stressed. &he aint ard me.
went into 'trouble' w dora.
feel insulted. aint happy. was angry. am nt now.
i've jst decided to yi de bao yuan & accpt her 'ignorance' w benevolance.
i dun nid her 2 realise im wrong.
i jst wan enjoy my sec4 life & she aint gonna stop me.

thanks lots 2 dose hu went thru w me.
dose hu comforted me at my worst times.
*siH. *Jkai. *Sbin. *Yshi. *gina. *9lene. Zyi. Jmin? ShuenER? BingY?
sry i wasnt rly observant in tt kinda situation.
a sincere thanks to ppl i missed out XD

2007-01-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

if u noticed i've been updating quite spontaneously recently. in dis new yr of 2007, emotions strike me vry strongly. i've grown a few mre tear glands & mayb 1 mre heart on my right chest which will probably explain y it hurts.

i bet u've heard e story of Goldilocks[sp?] & e 3 'lil bears? Goldilocks had nth n evrythin she sees [chairs & beds & porridge] belonged 2 others. non were hers. & when she tries 2 take dem she was seen s an intruder, e bad guy. all goldilocks wanted was a chair. but all e chairs were unsuitable. when she found one she tot was gd[baby bear's], jst when she tot she cld take a rest, e chair broke. so she was forced 2 continue her journey. evrythin was against her. e porridge scald her...she was waken frm her dreams...all goldilocks wanted was smwher she belongs, 4 others 2 share w her. all goldilocks wanted was to b loved...was 2 b happy, aint it?

2007-01-10T18:28:00.000+08:00

when 1 person makes a mistake e whole grp of ppl pay 4 it....is it justified? is it fair? i dun wan tnk cos my brain is too tired lately....and yes i noe its my own fault 4 nt completin assignments....all i wan sae is tt....dun make unrelated ppl gt punished or lectured cos of u...

feel lyk quittin my position in interact club....tmr i'll prob b able 2 release of myself of e non existant duties in class....some weight off myself....interact meetings r useful i noe budden i feel so xtra dere 2 b jst takin minutes of e meetin so ends up i spend hrs listenin 2 dem tok....i rly wan concentrate on studies dis yr....esp aft syf n rad xam...i gt a high aim n i wan myself 2 hit tt....but dun wry...dance will still stay s my shelter n a place i can alwaes turn 2....and no...im nt on depression mode....so dun wry.....evr since 3/1 pass im ovrall ok i tnk....feel lyk im movin closer n closer 2 my dreams n im startin 2 do HOMEwrk at HOME [: at least a bit k....n im feelin alrite bah....i rly noe e ppl i can turn 2.....althou no huggs allowed ;p

is tt destiny? is tt fate? is tt coincidence? watevr it is is playin a trick on me....makin me c him evrywher at jst e mst impossible times, staircase, walkin thru e hall, look dwn frm e staircase, outside library....1 gd thin...no longer on e bus....but watevr...let it b....jst wonderin hw long i can make myself dun lyk him if dis continues...nt tt im nt happy XD WE"RE FRIENDS AFTERALL XD feel so guilty 4 scoldin him tt day....;)

2007-01-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

tdae for e 1st time evr i feel lyk dere's a direction i want to wrk twrds in life...n tts prob ws's credit 4 bein so sure of wat he wants & lyks....it sets me tnkin n nw i realised i will prob nvr regret joinin horizon advanced class...no doubt its gonna b a bz yr...w gr6 xam, syf, horizon EOY xam, O lvls, mayb attitude concert & mayb a couple mre performances...but its onli tdae when i seriously tot of wat mr ng said 2 me while i was rushin my last min application form....aft passin dis yr's advanced xam we'll b promoted 2 performing class & it'll b my turn 2 perform! not tt i've nvr tot of bein a prt time dancer, dance tchr or watsoevr in e past....it jst felt so far away frm me in e past....lyk...sg arts so on e low side n it seemed lyk deres no route available to brin me on a journey 4 dance....nw howevr...evrythin jst seems a little distance away....i seem to b able 2 c dem laid out...all i hav 2 do is prob wrk hard & i'll prob gt wat i want.....its lyk 4 e 1st time 4 yrs tt luck seems 2 shine so brightly on me & i wish i wish i wish it wldn evr end.....

i want to gt L1R5<6 for Os. i want 2 go inter-foun aft gr6. mayb try gr7? budden i dun tnk dey'll open tt class anw.....i want pass gr6 w distinction[i noe tts xtremely diff]. i want pass advanced @ horizon w distinction [ diff too i noe]. i want go on 2 performing class. i want stay w sulaoshi. i wan study for teaching certificate s soon s i can. i want stay on s part of horizon. i want international dance 2 clinch a GWH 4 e sch. i want sounds of bliss 2 gt into SYF opening ceremony. i want to perform in attitude EOY concert. i want gt a gd role in EOY horizon dance xam item. & 1 day i want ppl 2 pay me 2 take lesson[like hendy], 2 pay 2 watch ME perform on stage. XD smhow nw....i noe dose dreams r within my rch....dey may come true s earli s a few mths time & mst seem 2 b able 2 come true in a couple of yrs [:

2007-01-07T21:20:00.000+08:00

u noe minesweeper? yes...its tt stupid computer game where u try to find out where all e mines jst so e game wldn end so quickly n u can waste mre time....u noe tt game rly requires teamwrk 2 function....if u guess 1 mine wrongly u may end up bombin e whole thin n endin e whole game. 1 mistake spoils evrything....

i finally realise y sm things nvr gt done....y sm things r 4evr so disorganised....it all originates frm 1 mistake n tt mistake spoils evrythin....1 person(A) does nt explain anythin when he passes on his wrk 2 others...e person hu gts e wrk(B) doesnt noe wat 2 do....jst when B noes wat he's supposed 2 b doin his time is up.....its his turn 2 pass on e job to C....dere it goes....C doesnt noe wat he's supposed 2 do....n tts y evrythin gts messed up....n e things A shd hav done nvr gts done.....n when asked evry1's gonna blame it on time....now when i finali understand wat im supposed 2 b doin....when i finally understand hw evrythin's supposed 2 go....dere....my time seems 2b endin b4 i can gt anythin done.....all e passion n eagerness goes dwn tt drain.....c...dis is y e sch's so disorganised too.....a tchr leave n left his students 2 fend 4 demself....dey gt a stup lousy new tchr hu cant tch n dere.....evrythin dwn e drain once mre.....

2007-01-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

SRY. tts prob my purpose for blogging on e sacred 020107 midnite. so much, so many ppl i have to say sry to. list dem out? ltr. but if i miss u or if u feel tt i shd b sayin sry 2 u den mayb i shd & tts a sry jst 4 u. =

SRY. for being e sucker i was, am & may b.
SRY. for being e slacker i was, am & may b.
SRY. for being unhappy as i was, am & may b.
SRY. for throwing e temper i did & may agn.
SRY. for telling u i love u & for mayb loving u agn.
SRY. for being e horrible dancer i was, am & will b.
SRY. for being so self-centred as i was, am & may b.
SRY. for smsing u when u least wanted in e past, present & future.
SRY. for being e weirdo u tink i was, am & will b.
SRY. for getting angry for e slightest thing in e past, present & future.
SRY. for not being a gd fren as u tot i nvr was, nvr am & will nvr b.
SRY. for not returning love tt u gave, mayb still giving & may give.
SRY. for not being e person u tink u can trust in e past, now & future.
SRY. for being stupid tinkin tt i noe u in e past, now & future.
SRY. for being scared tt i may like u agn.
SRY. for being too forgiving as i tot i was, am & may b.
SRY. for trying too hard to find a fren as i did, am & will.
SRY. for tinkin i can join in ur grp as i prob did, am & may.
SRY. for tinkin i can gt s close 2 u s anyone else as i did, am & may.
SRY. for e things i tot i cld do in e past, present & future.
SRY. for all i've done, right or wrong, in e past, present & future.
SRY. for all i've nvr done, am nt & may nvr do.
SRY. for all e $$ i've spent, am spending & may.
SRY. for tinkin i've aesthetics potential in e past, present & mayb future.
SRY. for needing u by my side when i was dwn, am & may b.
SRY. for nt wanting u to c me cry, am nt & may nt.
SRY. for nt being worthy of any1's trust in e past, present & mayb future.
SRY. for nvr being & will nvr be ur best fren.
SRY. for makin u unhappy if i evr did in e past, present & future.
SRY. for being e flirt i was, am & may b.

1001 SRYs. or evn mre. like i'll nvr finish listing dem evn if i go on 4evr.
SRY. for being born. or appearing in ur life.

2006-12-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

i rly love e dance 《荷塘月色》 which i found on youtube by chance frm a post link frm dance.net on chinese classical dance. & 《荷塘月色》 rly left a deepest impression inside me. i posted e link on rvds.blgspt budden im gonna post it here agn: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=37RseL4T1qs go on have a look when u r free xD. e gals r portrayin as 荷花s in a 荷花塘 under e moonlight(月色). rly beautiful shen duan tt i rly hope can b displayed in soundsofbliss & zhuilang. to evryone, its actually 27dec now so a belated MERRY X'MAS & HAPPY BOXING DAY! ard 12+ - 13 hrs ltr i'll b dancin hopefully under mr ferrer's coaching 4 preparation of my RADgrade6 xams. gambate! lolxD 6hrs coaching class frm 1pm till 7pm XP.

my x'mas wish: 1) soundsofbliss obtain gd results - GOLDWITHHONOURSsyf07+syf07OPENINGNIGHT ;2) mydarlingsATTITUDEtochangeforthebetterxD ;3) my dance&ballet to improve ;4) flexibility to improve ;5) abs!

2006-12-23T20:58:00.000+08:00

i am beginning t feel rly tired...both physically & mentally....
dese recent few combined practices w chi dance hav rly set me tnkin....& i blieve set other sec3s tnkin too...dere's an obvious diff in standard & im nt gonna pinpt & push e blame on anyone. but its rly gtting me disheartened....esp e younger ones in modern dance's attitude....its gtting....off. i duno if its ur attitude or watevr reasons tt makes u unable t listen, rmbr, apply watevr lil things seniors 雕 for u ppl...& blieve it or nt, we dun hav e sadistic habit of torturing juniors for our own pleasure. evrythin done is for evryone's welfare. i blieve noone likes gtting scolded, shouted at in front of evryone. no one likes deir item t b looked dwn on. or mayb some of u dun evn feel e pride of bein in dis item at all? i rly hav no idea & noone will noe excpt for dose guilty few. isit bcos tt evryone is in syf dis yr tt noone feels e honor of havin e rare opportunity t join dis national competition? isit onli when 90% of u guys & of us r taken out of e dance or when onli 追浪 is sent in tt u guys will realise wat u wld hav lost? or mayb until den u wldnt evn feel anythin at all. seniors spent all dose time t 雕 for u....do u tnk we'd nt rather spend dis time resting, talking, 雕 ourselves, practise, make ourselves beta...tt we like hlpin u all 雕? if u rly feel u guys r gd enuff, fine. tts it. u can face e consequences urself & i can tell u sulaoshi will nt hesitate t take anyone he feels is obstructing e progress of e dance out of e dance & when e time comes, dun u cry. too tired t sae anymre. if u ppl can realise wats wron u will. if u cant, u wldn.

on a lighter note: i want lose 2kg & gain ab lines [:

2006-12-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

sry, too lazy to update recently. have been slacking n wasting my time away...a bit regret but wu2 suo3 wei4. hols comin to an end n haven evn start my hwk. gotta go into dem soon...n pack my table, my rm...nowadays uploading vids on youtube. go get a look. my user name is danseurella. anw...seem to hav lost mst interests nwadaes...sry so long nvr go dance....ti3 ruo4 duo1 bing4....make u all v nan2 zuo4 ren2. i rly dun mind takin e blame cos its in fact my fault....i've lettin myself too loose lately n mayb its time to tighten my hold on myself once agn...w e syf choreo n stuff i gotta brace myself for mre further challenges. n recently like chen hao aka moses chan frm tvb mre n mre. s well s liao bi-er aka paiseh forgt her eng name lah...1 chiobu....tnk dey v pei4. k i tok crp. ya...1 thing....enjoyed sentosa lots n nvr regret goin despite bein um....played....lol. ya...thx ppl for bringin me e fun i hven xperienced for a long long time....n i rly wish to treasure all u ppl hv given me. if 1 dae i go w/o saein gdbye..rmbr i've alwaes loved all of u...till evr

2006-11-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

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2006-11-17T18:14:00.000+08:00

k. i sorta for now tnk dis blog kinda suck n tt mst of my stuff cnt tell evry1 so dun tnk i'll b updating nw. so much to sae tt i duno how to phrase. n on dis blog deres kinda much things tt i've gotta hide frm sm ppl. its so nt my journal. i dunnid sympathy so i dun tnk i nid hypocritical ppl hu pretend to cre den tok bhind my back. n for sm ppl's info i aint a flirt, aint a suckup, aint arrogant, aint a bitch if u noe mi. no...i aint gona xplain. dere's no use n no nid. if u r truely interested in my stuff n nt jst findin stuff to bitch abt mi den u might jolly well choose to ask mi....if i feel u worthy of knowin i'll tell u n vice versa. rmbr....i nid dignity....i hav feelings too...n i aint gona live e life ppl throw me. i gona choose my own path n right or wrong i'll learn my way. lyk wat jas said n i appreciate it...im mi....wat z said....my life shd b abt wat i wan n nt wat ppl wan frm me.. i'll learn e hard way...i'll fin my true frens b it 1 or 2, an ant or a tiger. yea...i'll find a way thru my tots. 1 thing will nvr change..no matter hw much my bro may hate mi nw im gonna b e bad guy n imply discipline...i dun care if he grw up w IQ200 or hav a thousand gals flockin ard him...i will do wat i deem rite nw.

2006-10-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

i tsuj thguoht ll'i a tsop erofeb i evael, ot niatretne ym 'layol' sredaer, evael meht gnihtemos os yeht t'now teg derob gnirud eseht 8 syad nehw ll'i eb enog. ahah...ni esac uoy reven esilaer, i t'nod evig stiderc ot elpeop ohw daer ym golb ekilnu neuhs tub i yllaer etaicerppa eht elpeop ohw daer ym sthguoht ylraluger os esaelp syawla evael a eton no ym draobgat erofeb uoy evael. os siht si tsuj ni esac m'i ton eerf ro oot derit ro tegrof ot tsop siht worromot gniees taht i t'nevah neve trats gnikcap ym egaggul
tey. yako i kniht siht lliw eb ti. doog kcul ot em rof worromot dna nob egayov (: lliw ssim gnilrad, oab oab gnoix, yddad, ymmum, retsis revethaw. (; yako i timda s'ereht emos ssenippah tub t'nahs liops s'enoyna doom. yppah syadiloh ab. dna fi uoy t'nod tnaw ees flesruoy gnieb desitirc pu ereh neht llet em ll'uoy eb gnidaer em golb -

2006-10-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

mbyae it wkros to tlak ylesruof bcak to yuor sesnes mbyae il'tl wrok wlel for me but il'l never konw besuace i a'nit gniog to try tihs in my bolg yet.

i wsih lfie can rruten to the psat wehn enihtyrevg was so slpmie it semeed taht lfie was bnirog. wlel, i wnat a bnirog lfie now. i rehtar enihtyrevg rruten to sticilpmiy rhgit now. i rerget aniksg god to mkae my lfie mroe initseretng if i eevr did but hvae fettogron. keep lfie sroht slpmie and seewt now. and il'l bmocee the ocne hppay cufreehl me aiagn ppahres.

nrebmus are so initseretng wcihh is mbyae why we are thguat mcitamehtas in soohcl. lnog lnog ago my nebmur was a 1 and jsut ONE. my fihsdneirp nebmur was 'itinifny' or so i uesd to bveilee. mbyae if hamun d'not gorw i'd slitl be lnivig in tsohe dyas. slday, we gorw and as we gorw our fgnilees cgnahe and our enemnorivnt cgnahe. our bfeiles cgnahe and so deos our nrebmus. fsrit it cegnahs itno a 3 but tehn at lsaet i kenw one of the cretcarahs a'nert ietseretnd at all. so it was jsut two uetalernd 1s tlil i fnuod him. it was lkie i thguoht enihtyrevg wluod bmocee dnereffit for a cgnahe but i was wnorg. i never eetcepxd or wetnad mcuh form him jsut my one-ssendedis but it tenrud out worst. h'ed been in a 3 brofee and i jsut aeddd in to mkae a 5. to keep enihtyrevg sroht one sdie cespallod and trehe lfet a 3. now i tnihk trehe is aehtonr aoisiddn of 1 on his sdie and taht mekas a 4. see? the nebmur TWO 2 never aeraeppd and to tnihk t'tahs all i wnat. fihsdneirp nebmur is aslo fnillag bolew zreo. i'ts tninrug nvitagee and i'm fnileeg a wried ssnee of fsennethgirs. plbabory il'tl dpolevee itno a piboha?

d'not tlel me coz i'm aiarfd i'ts ture. coz i'm aiarfd i'm gnnoa get hrut bsuacee of you aiagn. iv'e sehd far too mcuh traes. i cry too mcuh. i get hrut by the ssewollaht silt the ssethgilt cnemmot. tihs is the rael me.

2006-10-15T17:02:00.000+08:00

this is for a special someone who spent the time to try talk me into my senses. all i can say is thanks a dozen times and i don't think i can thank you enough. we are different just like you said. you work for what you want. you live for yourself. you are who i want to be. i am the opposite of the person i want to be. i can't live for myself because the real me is too cold. so cold i can never gain happiness for even just seconds. no one likes the real me. the real me is too blunt for good. the real me insist on what i think is correct. however the real me is who i want to be if anyone supports it. the real me is tough on the outside but too soft inside. the real me got me into too much trouble. it earns me tight slaps cat fights and a permanent scar and also too much tears. it earns me no friends because no one will appreciate that kind of a person. sorry. i've been through too much. i want to be who i want to be i want what i want. it's not me who chose split personality and it's not me who chose to trust you to spill me other side to. turns out you are the same as others. though different. no one knows the pain i've been through and i am not trying to live in my sorrows. i am trying to be the me that others like but it doesn't work. others like people who likes to play so i play. if i had been the silent and cold me would you have even known me? i am sorry to have irritated you. all i need is seriously a friend. don't worry. i will do as i promised. the moment i said all those to you i know there's almost no way for return. it's a one way passage because we are too different. you are what you want because you can. i am not what i want because i can't. it's not that i believe i can't. it's just no one will like that me. too cold staying in a corner in the darkness. too lonely a me.

2006-10-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

i duno y tokin 2 him alwaes makes me cry..
i admire him to be able to be hu he wants to...
mayb its cos he's hu i want to be

2006-10-08T20:23:00.000+08:00

! UNDER CONSTRUCTION !

comments are very welcomed (:

oh...by the way....anyone know how to laterally invert an image?

2006-09-21T19:00:00.000+08:00

faced w a bit of self trouble recently. yeah..its nt u guys lah. jst..a bit of self-pressurising self-induced-suffering n tt sort. really nth serious.

fine. if he dun bother den mayb i shant care too. wats e use of tinking of him when i hav decided to give up?

2006-09-16T10:21:00.000+08:00

i jst did sth sm ppl may sae is stup sm ppl may sae its gd. doesnt matter anymre. sm things r nt gonna b e way we wan it 2 b. sm things jst aint gonna wrk out e way u wan dem.
if evrythin in dis wrld wrk out in e way a function wrks in maths, evrythin will b so damn simple. we'll live in a simple wrld wher how much u put in defines how much u will gt. but sadly, dis is nt how e wrld is. sm ppl put in evrythin but gts nth in return. its like...sm functions hav conditions attached 2 dem. in love, e condition is tt e person mst love u bac. if nt, evrythin becomes undefined.
on e other hand, sm ppl put in lil jst a moment or two of likin sm1 n u realise e person likes u bck too. in conclusion, love is a function
f:x -> ax, x=sm1 hu likes u bck
does it make sense at all? it doesnt matter anymre. nth does.

2006-09-09T01:26:00.000+08:00

wldn b updatin 4 some time. MUGG~!
hahas. yea. he's bac n nicer. budden shnt go irritate him liaos. apologise 2 dose ppl i told i'll 4gt him. i cant yet. its lyk evrytime i decide 2 giv up on him something will happen 2 kip mi goin. sry 4 breakin a promise 2 u guys. yea. not gonna woo him or wat. jst gonna b dere lykin him. tts all. so if u wan him jst take him anytime. let me noe b4 hand thou. i dun wanna b treated lyk a dumbo ;)

sea of harmony's ova. YEAH! hahas. dun wan crp ova it. will b super long lahhs. if u wan noe more details ask mi personally lahhs. basically almst half e ppl flopped xD i nv thou (: WELL DONE ALL! ITS A GOOD JOB DONE AND I CAN SEE THE UNION OF RVDS!

kx. i promise 2 pia cos im failin 2 subjs. sry 4 saein i heck evrythin cos my sis wake mi 2 e fact tt i hav 2 gt a low L1R5. <9 hopefully. wahhs. gotta wrk double hrd. @ lst cant fail anythin 4 EOYs.

2006-09-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

he will be gone soon and i just wish he can be back fast. so i can see him again.
i hope he can be happy and smile more and laugh more and show others the him that he has hidden to insulate oneself from hurt. show me your happy self. if you can be happy for a second, you have done a good deed for a second by making me happy.
you know there's this song that goes 'make a wish make a wish..'. i forget which song it comes from but if i can make a wish i wish him to be with the person he likes just so he can be happy inside. i will in turn get happiness by seeing them happy.
please don't leave without saying goodbye.

2006-09-01T09:42:00.000+08:00

yahhs...yest. let me tink.. o yes! tchrs dae concert. fine. e dance went horrible can? sry 4 dose hu held HIGH xpectations on us. we disappointed u guys.. n e ending. munhan's alrite. shant tok much. lots mistakes n evrything.. x( doesn matter anymore.
MR TONG SANG A SONG AND PLAYED THE GUITAR!
god. im startin 2 feel sad tt mr tong going. serious. im nt bein sarcastic or wat. reali. he sang 'when a baby is born(?)' yest n i was truely moved. it jst reached out 2 my soul n..well...
n gt rehearsal which i sldn bother 2 sae anythin xcpt tt UCC's super cold!!! *shivers*

i like someone who can never like me
however much i wish to let go
however much i tell myself just let go
i am sorry to say i still like him
no substitute for him yet
i tried to show him my shrewd and crazy and rebellious side
just because he don't like me telling him my problems
no it just doesn't work
i am sorry that i like him

2006-08-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

5 Reasons Why Jin Hwee Is A Stupid Girl

1) she always forgets to bring her book and has to borrow from people (irritating/disrupting)

2) when she ever so rarely tries to do her assignments, she'll realise she can only do 1/2 to 3/5 of the assignment

3) she always forgets to bring ESSENTIAL materials home and to school. thus she ALWAYS hands in homework late as she CANNOT do her homework without the essential materials. (duh)

4) she dances ever so uglily and she can't remember new dance sets (how bad can her memory be?)

5) she learns s-l-o-w (and i mean extremely s l o w)

6) when she can't deal with basic relationships (eg friendship, kinship...)

7) she passes only ONE geog test so far this year. out of 4 or 5. and she failed again this time round

8) she failed her last physics test (as expected?)

9) she's stupid enough to stay up late into the night to study when she knows that there is no way she's gonna pass no matter what

10) she sleeps in class even when she knows she's gonna fail the next test

11) she shouts on the mrt and makes EVERYONE stare at her and embarrassed her friends and her school and of course, herself

12) she keeps trying to catch the earlier train but never manage ever since the time on the clock is right

13) she gives herself 10mins to bathe in the morning when she can jolly well take a 30mins+ long bath the night before

14) she shouts until the whole world knows that she failed her geog

15) she thought she's clever (of course NOT) enough to let go when she wants to, before she goes too deep in. but she never

16) everytime she thought she has handled enough pain to let go, she gets influenced by his once in a while niceness or plainly the things people say about him

17) she always think she stands a chance (why don't she look at herself in the mirror?)

18) she tells someone she barely knows about her problems (how stupid?) and got scolded "what the f*ck" just because she trust him

19) she thought she's brave enough to die. but she never dares to try (plain talk?)

20) she almost tell the whole world who she likes

21) she cried for a person who doesn't like her (two?)

looks like 5 reasons are just simply not enough. now that i count..there's way too much. how stupid can a person get?

2006-08-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

I've always wanted to upload this somewhere.
Lurve these words

"You cry because you are utterly alone"

"No one has ever truely been there for you.
When you need a shoulder to cry on,
no one stands beside you.
The world is a cold and unfriendly place
where people take no notice of the small things...
and sadly,
you are the only person that knows this is true.
Keep your chin up...
the world may abandon you,
but you can always turn your back on it
and cry your silent tears in the darkness."

Sadly, how true these words are.
How many people actually bother to notice the people around them crying?
How many people actually bother to care when they notice?
How many people actually bother to stand by them when they care?
How many people actually bother to learn a supporting hand when they stand beside them?
How many people actually bother to support them from the heart?
You are alone without yourself knowing it and it's just that I understand it earlier than you.

2006-08-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

im posting here cos its fri n i hav 2 daes ahead 2 study so i dun hv 2 rush evrythin tdae:) yepps! finali cn hav a break budden im startin 2 psycho myself tt studyin is gr8 n interestin xS physics n maths cumin up. pia 4 a few more days n THERE i'll b free! lol. lyk any rvian will evr b 'free' ;)

aft dance tdae whch was FULL of jumps n turns n runs n ?screams? lol we went jec s usual 4 our fri dinner *grinns* n it was lyk damn l8 tdae cos we were doin e tchrs dae dance which contributed 2 mst of the screams anw n b4 i realise it was alreadi 7+PM when we rch e busstop lorrs.. 2 tnk 4 1ce no1's chasin us out n we stayed till SO l8 :) anw guess hu we saw dere @ jec mac? MS MO!!! <3<3<3 lolx. she was w ys ms sk ys ws's bag n a gurl hu i dunno :) its lyk 1st thin we saw..sk's back n den there's MS MO! *screams! clapps!* lol n shes lyk givin dem PHYSICS tuition! lol

physics onli hav pressure n maths onli gt bk 4 chpt 4 & 5 to pia. jiayous evryone!!

**
optical illusions: the eye perceivin sth which is non existent.
is it tryin 2 tell us 2 nt trust wat we c n follow our heart instead
OR
is it tryin 2 tell us 2 nt trust our instincts n tt illusions cn mislead us n tt we shd alwaes onli blieve in logic?

i jst realise hw blessed u cn feel w jst a mug of plain H2O with 3 ice cubes n a pack of oreos :)

2006-08-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

its common tst time so i wldn b postin much dese few days. a break... so s 2 gain more pts in xams :) tts w e xcption of sth BIG happenin xD

jst pts 2 learn: no1 lyks 2 hear abt ur probs in e mid of dere own stuff. ppl will prefer u bein more cheerful. so stay cheerios!
i still like him so but i will concentrate on my studies now :) dun wry

2006-08-10T14:12:00.000+08:00

speakin of the mrt. i hav l8ly taken to a lykin 2 walk fr e end w lrt 2 e other end wheneva i hav e tym while w8tin 4 e trn. dere..i feel safer. i feel less possibility of cin ___ n a higher probability of bein by myself, w dance ppl or cin ___. its jst a routine. i feel beta when walkin. i tink less. oso i hav taken 2 lykin 4 observin. observin e ppl ard me..lots more. dey jst make me learn lots :)

2006-08-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

today is my happiest day since i tink term 3 strted. xD im finali relieved from MOST stress 4 one day! budden its enuff 4 me to njoi myself b4 pia-in, mugging n wryin unnecessarily agn :)

ND celebrations was totali...noob. sian diaox( a few prts were quite funi budden e rest was lyk...trash. paisehs 2 organising com. nt tt u all nt doin a gd enuff job its jst e performance was...sianns. :(
IC ExCos Break! lolxp im super happie. duno y budden damn glad 2 noe NO MEETINGS FOR 2 WHOLE WEEKS! hahas. im so crazie lahhs. =)))
got new fone liaos! ~yay!~ LOL. its a mickey mouse disney design fone w limited edition color :)) muacks. so cute! hehes...budden e functions r...haix...
FIREWORKS! i lurve 3C n fireworks e mst. sihui, dun wry. im nt reali pissed ova tt stuff n im fine. shes still my fren n hes still my pres x) im fine. z's 'taught' me lots n i learn 2 look on e bright side of things? lol. tts so rare...
gahhs. i jst rched hm 15 mins ago lorrs. hav fun dude..

Evrythin i c i'll jst link dem bac 2 him x)

Edited: I jst wana add i v nearli almst wore e same shrt s a guy xD grinns. budden is a more female version of e shrt he wore :)
edited again(9/8): i 4gt 2 add ytd durin com singin e song "HOME" i was super emotional n almst cried. long storie n i dun wanna bore u ppl here ;)
~'this is home surely as my senses tell me this is where i wouldn't alone for this is where i know it's home...'

2006-08-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

im in some phase of my life wher i jst wana look bac in life n c hw i was in e past. w e usual lots of hwk n late wrk pilin..w all e stress pilin..w some probs tt i dun wana tok abt.. its too much 4 me. i noe im irritatin him agn by askin him 2 listen budden goin in circles n nt statin e pt...sry..i jst duno wher 2 strt. i jst duno wat i can sae thou i trust him n wat i cant sae. i rilli cant gt anythin straight nw. thins r goin bad. i'll jst walk aimlessli n sincerely wish 4 a car 2 jst knock me dwn. den when a car seriously cum by i'll tink "wat m i doin?" n bac out lst min. can i jst tell him im jealous? gahhs...tts e prob w mr blessed. hes a bit too impatient. he looks @ other ppl's probs 2 lightly lyk a tok can wrk it out. if it can..i wldn nid 2 tok 2 him..or ani1..

2006-08-04T21:36:00.000+08:00

i was tinkin abt ___ e whole bus journey. was wif e ds sec 3 ppl @ jec eatin den we started tokin abt ___ cos i was saein sh is onli @ ___'s shoulder. lol. den dey start tokin abt his family n i realised his family is so complicated. dun tok much. its nt gd 2 tok abt ppl.

duno since when i despise e qn 'y?'. mayb ish cos im asked it too often. mayb cos im scared of havin 2 lie if i hav 2 xplain. mayb.. sths jst cant b reasoned. mayb all of e abve? styms nt all thins hav a reason. styms e reason ish illogical. styms truth jst cant b told. when dese tyms occur.. dun ask. dun ignore. jst do wat e person wana u 2 do..if u treat dem s frens..if u trust dem..den dey wldn harm u. styms ppl jst nid another person dere 2 listen or 2 take deir minds off stuff. styms if u dun feel lyk doin sum stuff u shd tell ppl nicely. styms it hurts when ur too frank. hw can i possibly tell u a whole list of thins tts happenin 2 mi? all i can sae ish im unhappy/depressed/sad/pissed. n when u sae dis too mani tyms it bcum a routine n jst aint convincin enuff. ppl'll den tink u lie.

y muz evrythin hav a purpose? styms thins cant b explained in a logical way. styms dere's no way anythins gona make u xplain. styms reasons jst aint available evn 2 urself. wat purpose can i hav? if u feel i hav a purpose..den wat kinda fren r u..or tt since when did u evr treated mi s a fren? im jst some1 trepassin ur life wif mi childishness n leavin agn w/o leavin a trace.

when ppl do evrythin 4 a reason..dey jst aint pure anymore.

2006-08-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

my life's damn packed w hw nowadays lors. lolx. wonderin if its jst mi or evry1..hm.. hahas. still gt dance lahhs. sianx. gttin so damn sick of dancin liao. jst wan watch ppl dance n dun feel lyk dancin xD shhshh..dun tell ppl i said dis horrs.
k lahhs. i jst drp in 4 some crap. goin eat supper liao xD

Overwhelming Stress

2006-08-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

gahh...stress is lyk takin ova my life now. hmm. evrydae i jst tink of how much hw i hav n how i hav 2 watch n prac dance evrydae n my results n now i end myself up in SS remedial still. umm..fine. im lyk dumb rite? wateva lors. worse-im e onli gal fr my class. worst-its on thurs aft my damn l8 dae (315pm) n aft maths still (until ard 4pm) so its lyk gonna start real l8 lahhs. grr.. so wat time i gonna gt home? w a bunch of lyk...guys somemore? its damn crap.

hmm..n i dunno y i jst gt e impression its cos i fail my ss isit? n den i start gttin all moody ova it. haix..hahas. i went vandalise sum1 (c if its u!) table w a spoil pen tip n i tink i made lyk um...holes n lyk um...lots of long scratches on e table. LOL. hahas. shhsh... nvm.. um.. e table was originally xtremeli um...scratched by a big-sized tic tac toe board. lol. *grinns*

Life Sux Guys Sux

2006-07-30T20:04:00.000+08:00

k. mayb i shd hav gotten ova dis readi. budden..its so untrue. i c him evrydae n c him bcum happier n c him bein slpy in class n c him plaein soccer n c him at the bus stop n c him evrywher n c him n c him c him c him c him. tts lyk so nt mi 2 spot a person @ 1 glance. wth. nvm. he looks so much happier dis wk while its lyk my worst wk. gtin 2 noe too much things ish NO gd. evrythins gonna b alrite s lon s hes happie. rite? no way..

i feel damn depressed. interact stuff. busy busy busy. wrk until 6++ evrydae. gt scoldings, scoldings and MORE shoutings. rch hm 8+ evrydae. no1 2 tok 2. no1 cares. its lyk a routine when i gt hm so damn tired i go rite 2 bed. wake up in e mornin n pia hw in class n den try not 2 slp in class. cant tok abt evrythin 2 1 person. cant sae im sad. cant sae im depressed. cant sae im unhappie. still muz act happie in case ppl sae i act depressed. y? i feel so damn dwn. n some1 has 2 thrash mi w wrds. i hav enuff.

its lyk 1 whole wk n u muz tink i hav gtten ova it rite? no way. its lyk..such a humiliation 2 me. saein im actin n tts y no1 blieves mi n all. jst sae YOU dun blieve me n tt u tink im actin. isnt tt enuff? wth. n mi havin 2 apologise cos i dun wanna b hated? tts lyk wtf lahhs.. n u are obviously still tinkin tt ur rite. u MAY b 4 my own gd budden NO. ur hideously wron 2 hurt som1 hu trusted u n thrash e person w ur wrds jst when im @ e lowest pt of my life.

suicidal tots r bcumin more n more recent 2 mi. im startin 2 consider ways of suicidal evry now n den i rch somewher wher suicide is possible. 1 dae when i gt e apology i wan. it will b e lst thin i sae. it'll b nvm. its alrite. if i nvr manage 2 sae gdbye 1 dae..rmbr..dun feel sad. stay happie k?

2006-07-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

sorta argued sundae 9t. dun wanna tok much abt it. jst tt..is it so difficult 2 gt a fren uh? is a soul mate so diff to gt? if u had onli listened..if..then you would hav known tt im nt lying. im not acting. no. i dun hav to. esp in front of you. 4 wat? n wat purpose can i hav? for smsing u? i dun understand u n i dun understand myself. u nd time 2 settle ur probs n i nd time to jst calm dwn. i will jst hav 2 take wat jolene said tt i mistrusted e wron person @ e wron time. im nt independant n its all my fault tt i wanna share. i wana hlp n i wana sum1 2 console me.

dance @ gallery tdae. up so high. i tot of e sad n hurting thins n i feel lyk cryin 4 e 4th consecutive dae. nt bcos u said it but bcos e wrds hurt. but i noe no1 bothers. it'll still b mi n myself bein all sad n all. e more i tink e more i feel hurt. i jst wana jumped off e gallery. instead i chose 2 tink wisely..for once. i chose 2 irritate haiwei by pullin her out 2 jog budden turn out she dun wana jog. act all i wanted was some time 2 sort things out. it hurts too much to tink. instead i saw u. u sux. isnt tt wat u wana b? i dun wana tok much. i was sitting ard 0.8m off e ground n i jst decided 2 jump barefooted. i didn noe wat made mi do tt..4 once i didn care wats gonna happen if i injured my feet. 4 once..i sorta wana hurt myself. i landed hrd on e hrd floor n it hurts. i jst wana break dwn n cry but i aint let myself allow any1 2 c my weak side anymore.

2006-07-18T20:38:00.000+08:00

i tink i changing blog skin a bit. lyk aft my bz schedule. =D

31/08 - teacher's day dance (sec 3s)
01/09 - nus synergy concert [ anggun ] (no seniors! sec 2 n 3)
08/09 - teachers' day dinner [ sea of harmony ] (no seniors!)

sian. wrkin hrd. budden since when did hu care?

2006-06-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

went for interact meeting todae until ard 6pm.

den cos of junkai askin mi 2 check zhcc studio asap so when dere on my way home n ask. dey sae fri usually nt veh bz de. (yeah rite...unlyk sat hor?) tt stupid studio completely pissed me out... studio is nice n cold n all budden...renting suck lahh. we went on sat n guess wat dey told us?

FULL DAY BOOKED!

damn it. wher can lyk tt book full dae de lorrs...haix...so inconsiderate ppl lahhs. x( n make me wake so early somemore n make some of dem go zhcc so earli den gotta go all e way BACK. pissed.

still make dem dance @ e carpark roof somemore. noe dey damn pissed lahhs. sry lahhs. budden i dun feel its my fault k?

so dey make me go check 4 fri lahh. n dey nt even sure wat time lahhs. so i went zhcc dere n ask e counter lady 4 dance studio booking time 4 e WHOLE FRIDAY n e lady just stare @ mi lyk i siao lyk tt n ask mi wat time i wan check e slot n so i sae i nt sure abt e time hlp mi check whole dae. feel so lyk dumb lahh. so she sae empty n tt i can call in advance lahhs. kxD. so i gt e no n go.

i left being so sian so guess wat i did??

WALKED ALL THE WAY FROM ZHENGHUA CC HOME!

mind u. i live btwn petir statn n bp statn. in case u dun noe, zhcc is @ segar statn dere! so i sian den i tot...hmm..mayb can wlk home n jian fei also xD. lolx) and i did it!!! tt's lyk 2+km in 30min. 4 statns!! xD

***

was so happy goin iceskating den now its lyk evry1 bang sei me n yishi lahhs. pissed. yisheng is cos he mayb sick. jolin n wenqin...haixD nvm. dun guai4 dem. now i so pissed i dun feel lyk goin out tmr le lahs!!

2006-06-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

We're Dancing!

When the going starts to get rough
And you feel like you've had enough
Let the music take control of your soul
Take a chance and do what you feel
You're a force they cannot live without
You gotta break the chain
Yeah Yeah

There's a passion inside
An inner strength that drives
Can't nobody take that away from you
It's the greatest high
You set the floor on fire when you come alive

And we're dancing
And it feels alright
I can't control my desire
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Yeah
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Can't hold me down
Gotta reach for the sky
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Yeah

Some people don't understand the love you possess
They pretend what they don't understand
It's natural
You're in a world of your own
Ohhhhh Oh

There's a passion inside
An inner strength that drives
Can't nobody take that away from you
It's the greatest high
You set the floor on fire
When you come alive

And we're dancing
And it feels alright
I can't control my desire
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Yeah
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Can't hold me down
Gotta reach for the sky
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Yeah

Push it to the max
Feel the room fall at your feet
Don't you dare hold it back
Cuz it feels so good
It feels alright

There's a passion inside
An inner strength that drive
Can't nobody take that away from you
It's the greatest high
You set the floor on fire when you come alive

And we're dancing
And it feels alright
I can't control my desire
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Yeah
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Can't hold me down
Gotta reach for the sky
And we're dancing
And it feels alright
Yeah

And we're dancing

2006-05-31T22:06:00.000+08:00

haha.

today marks the end of 3 days of intensive training for ta da! spanish dance. c? we dun onli do ballet n chi dance k? lolxD

yahh. e dance is finish n look so much beta den b4 aft we diao 4 lyk total 4hrs? or isit more? hahas. worth it bah i tink thou i dun really lyk e dance. lolxp

i haven gt my spanish skirt yet. in case u r wondering, yah. its those type of ankle length black n red full skirt which u kip grab n let go n den grab agn n swish e skirt ard type. hahas. so fun rite? doubt i can grab anything in e end. probably grope air. lol.

yah. i was saeing i haven gt e skirt yt cos i went to settle ds packing stuff tt dae during dance n dey gt e skirt so ta da! i dun hab a skirt cos nt enuff. fine lahh.

so e story continues..

i arrived l8 n tied my skirt in a rush n den grace came n we started dance 1 time 4 her.

i was running running running den suddenly .. ehh? whers my skirt? lol. i was lyk wah dead le. hais. n e guys were lyk luffing? so mean! hahas. worse still, i cant run away! jinghui wasnt dancing cos of her feet swollen so i call her ask her hlp mi take my skirt n she was lyk " huh?" den she look @ me n she point n start luffing. lolxD. so paisehhs. heng i gt go in den i can wear my skirt. lol.

********

gt thz physics makeup remedial tmr. budden i wanna bon lehhs. cos lyk onli me going n jk not even going too cos e guys gt training w deyi. hmm. if i dunno any1 else going. if no1 else going den i shall bon thz. hahas. anw i'll jus slp in her class. lol.

********

i miss WD. lolxD

btw, i gt 2 big fat blisters on e 3rd n 4th toe of my left feet. yah. due 2 no-padding pointe wrk. :) yeahs!

2006-05-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

DIARY OF A DANCER

on a dancing day

SWEETIES

today is a nice day. in fact, it's so good that i hope the day will never end and that we'll nv hav 2 prt n can jus continue toking on n on n on. budden oso no1 lyk listen 2 mi tok mahh. i tink dey tink i lyk 'auntie' lyk tt tok so much lahh. fine. xD budden i still gotta sae it's such a waste to end the day. nvm.

"good things always come to an end"

"tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi"

sry CD, sry ET. sry 4 making u 2 unhappy. i noe it's nt all my fault budden jus let me take all tt blame n let me deal w all dose things. put all e fault on me n dun get angry on each other can? pls. n ET, i noe i hurt u. i din wan u 2 noe cos i noe u'll b e 1 most hurt. i wanted 2 just gt things done internally n shrt n simple w/o u noeing. CD didn meant it 2.. its just all tt teasing.. i noe u sae u dun wan dance pas de deux budden act which gal doesnt wan.. it a perfect chance 2 show talents isnt it? i noe u r hurt. major. blame it all on mi k? dun bear it in ur heart n dislyk each other etc etc k?

btw, Z suck lyk hell lahh. she's so..... yt she tot she's so wonderful. rite lahh.. HAHAHA. so damn crap. nvm. i shall take it s a joke. shant tok too much. ltr gt lots prob rise... xp

yahh.. SWEETIES

de 2 of dem so nice 2 tok 2. im startin 2 wish he's my bro n my dearest fren cos e other already my closest fren le. hmm. budden anw its so nice to nt tok in e sense so loud evry single person noes. :) its sweet/nice to just tok among e 2 of us. lolxD he's such a swtheart ya noe? lolxp it doesnt suit his appearance 2 speak so softly. lol.

nowadays i sharing damn lots secrets w peeps. is dey tell me secret lahh. or i tell dem. den we realise we tink e same. xDD now got... 1, 2, gt 1 no longer secret, so i tink is 2 bahhs. :D ya.

btw i tink mrA dun wan msB de. lol. he said sth tt makes mi tot so. lol. i 4gt wat. haha. mrA so nice lahh. den w msB so wasted lor..msB so .......... shant sae too much. lolxD

anw, 4gting all dose bad things. its damn swt 2 just tok w ppl hu u can tok 2. :DD sweet sweet de. lol

DIARY OF A DANCER

2006-05-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

SPECIAL: BAD DAY SERIES 2

dis is e sequel 2 yest (vv)

yahh. i had 2 CONSECUTIVE ultra bad daes

so wonderful...

ep#1

dis's yest's. but..ohh well.

i type a damn lot yest 4 blg.

den while trying 2 save it

I DELETED THE WHOLE MSG.

i was lyk..wat e...

ep#2

i 4gt 2 take out my watch during dance

so i took it out n put somewhere e stage dere

den went dance

aft dance I COULDNT FIND IT!

so i nicely searched the stage

nano

so i gt so frustrated i emptied EVRYTHING fr my bag

den somehow somewher it pop up

AND I DIDN NOE WHER! lolxD

i was lyk...fine...

(btw its 4 days aft i bought it. i lost my old 1 4th day aft i buy. coincidental?)

ep#3

jh nida go off earli

so i went off w her

was quite pissed off (w e watch)

was holding eileen's book in my hand

so we reached mrt station n i sat dwn fold my socks

train come

i go inside train

train close

tok a while w jh

WAIT!

WHER'S EILEEN'S BOOK?!?

muz b @ mrt (i placed it on e chair while tying my shoelace)

gt off @ buona vista

took train back 2 commonwealth

searched the area

nth.

saw stef dere. told him loudly(hopin if ppl find e book will hear) i lost eileen's bk

sk bside him dunno sae wat..

sth lyk "just buy another 1 lahh"

i was lyk "its not my book" etcetc

finali told him (jokingly) "shut up lahh u"

frantically search agn

zero

train come

guys went in

search AGN

zilch

asked control station

"shakes head"

search bag

none

dead liao lor.. if i rilli cant find e bk i'll pay 4 it..

ep#4

train rch je

gt out

ran 2 middle train

FULL!

walked along searchin 2 gt in

see SK!

sk saw me n smiled n 'waved'?

pissed. make "beat u" sign n smile :D

damn sarca..

had 2 w8 4 another train still..

heyy ppl, i was moody tdae

if i shouted @ u den SORRY!

haix.

esp ds sec 3 gals n sk. :))

2006-05-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

fine

tdaes damn not my dae

wan noe wat happened?

there u go:

PRESENTING TO YOU

DIARY OF A DANCER

on a non-dancing dae

SPECIAL: bad luck dae

ep#1: painology

e pain in my left knees' gone

GOOD? your head!

its in my RIGHT knee now..

ep#2: touching rugby

sprained my left thumb(maybe is not sprain)

hate rugby in e first place

now lyk dis. thumb so painful.. OUCH!

ep#3: maths

mr tong came in n scold ova evry single small thing.

lalala~ so dotz lor.

finish copying nv tell him oso gt scolded..

ep#4: $$$

paid $5.60 4 physics FYS

gt only 40c left

eat wat?!?

ep#5: CL

RUSHED lyk hell during hist doin news

hu noes she nv go thru..

still ask us go do wat research lahh!!

CANT OPEN CHINESE CHARACTERS HOW DO?

ep#6: DS

went pack dance rm until 6+

rch home 7++

damn tired

ep#7: no ankle socks, only torn socks

walking home

dis stup sucker of a tcher

POINTING, "wats ur name? wat class u fr?"

ctc bside her, "ng jin hwee, 3c"

quite loud, "y r ur socks so short"

me, giving ctc face, "cos i just came out of D rm. in a rush so wear socks anyhow fold", in a SUPER nice & swt tone

sucker, "pull up ur socks (stg tt sound lyk tt) "

me, deciding 2 b nice, squat, blocking e SUPER narrow pathway, attempt pull up socks, pull until half, "sry, cant pull le cos gt hole"

sucker freakish b***** tcher, "go buy new ones lah!"

ermm..duhh! hu dunno. budden lyk i damn free rite? not lyk her want wat time go home oso can. n i superwoman (btw i LOVE tt song) can fly n get dere @ once lahh. rite.. no common sense. u rather RV ppl wear ankle socks or pull high high show ppl e 10cm-in-diameter-hole (not exaggerating) in their socks?

i long 4 tt satisfaction dance give me

but nowadaes its no longer tt strong

pride n happiness, freedom n laughs

jump, twirl, swirl, fly, stretch, kicks,

singles, doubles, unsteady, swaying,

anggun, spanish, seameo, step, more

costume n prop, music n step, u n me

brin me bac to tt fairyland of dance~

2006-05-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

life w/o dance

life's so sian when u noe deres no dance tmr!

oops

missing dance already.

hais.

u wldn blieve dis

i wish e self-initiated sessions tmr..

hais..

but its not.

sat 9AM

i wanna slp ya noe?

lakeside somemore.

=45min trip

=leave hse 8AM

=7:15 AM wake up!

argh! tts sat u noe..

hais.

vesak tmr

going nowhere.

aby cant go out.

so..

there.

home lahhs.

stick my small eyes 2 e com n make dem smaller.

opps.

i getting headache.

beta go off now..

regarding blgskin..

hais.

it has 2 w8..

mayb tmr

mayb june hols..

dunno.

xDxDxD

2006-04-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

sudden urge 2 change my blogskin agn.

dun ask y cos

i oso dunno

lolxD

jus feel dis blgskin doesnt really look nice?

c when gt time den i chnge.

tink is aft xams.

okie lahh.

was watching "never sae die"

haha.

e ppl inside cant rilly sing

budden isnt it e pt?

s an entertainment?

let ppl dream.

lolxD

love N5 thou

Chen2 Miao4 Rong2

she sang w Lin2 Ming2 Lun2

sang wat sad sad song

ni3 shi4 wo3 xiong1 kou3 yong3 yuan3 de4 tong4

nice song.

was tinkin

it isnt rilly e place 4 her 2 show her talents

she can sing

she gt nice voice

strong voice.

so wasted.

she still gt las in 'sms'

audience dont like her?

or isit ppl vote dose lousy ppl 1st?

dunno.

e Steven gt 1st

e 1 hu used 2 strip on tv

eek!!!

at least not like N8

he cant sing.

N8 gt lots surprises thou

nice guy

lolli

confetti

scarf

sang bei3 ji2 xue3

wif felicia chen

quite nice arh..

i mean felicia's voice lahh..

shant b bad

xPP

mugging 4 e sake of Ballet!!

i shant let any1 remove it fr me

n i mean it

nth can seperate US.

2006-04-16T13:33:00.000+08:00

i made it pass

one last time

one last one.

finally.

hmm.

beta concentrate on studies

at least for now.

yupps.

mum sae if i dun pass

EVERYTHING

for mid-yr

den she gonna make me

QUIT

BALLET!!

can u blieve tt?

haix(

tink dis's called...

"threatening"??

can i sue her?

life's nowher near ok

not 2 mention good

lolxD

*bitter laugh*

gt like a dozen assignments undone?

more den 12 i tink?

mayb.

beta finish dem

n hand in

if not gonna gt ZERO for dem

physics n chem gone

cant understand a single thin..

emm.

mayb a thing or two

not much.

dead

beta go knock my head

c if i can gt anything out

provided

IF i managed 2 gt anything in

lolx)

2006-03-29T19:50:00.001+08:00

IF day. 2A performance of Dang Ni, Bian Hao 89757 n Hen Duo Er. lolxP we muz hav looked super lame n dumb up dere. xDD at least we njoied ourselves. *muacks*

was damn pissed wif kai 2dae. lolxD shld sae jealous? of him. not over him. nvm tt. xDD i told him i hate him n he was like.."y?". lol. on way home at BB dere, was telling him n jolene wat jo-lin told me abt Libra ppl r easily attracted by Capricorn guys. he was like..shocked. (he's cap btw) lolxP 4gt tell him e nxt half which is "but dey not suitable 2 b 2gether". lol. i was saein its quite true n he was like "not true lor". i tink he tot Lib gals attract Cap guys or tt lib n cap suitable 2 b 2gether. lolxDD anw, leo oso attract gals easily.

new wrd i learnt: voice timbre

2006-03-17T19:28:00.000+08:00

first pair of pointes. lol. nobody can imagine my happiness.. 2 e others its just some more injuries n pain. dey dun c how fortunate dey r 2 learn pointe. hehe. :D i noe im so super lucky. tts y im so lalala happy now xP..
i half broke in e shoes by myself le. lolx) dey are Sansha Recital 202 in size 7X. lol. evry1 gt e same type lahh. onli diff sizing mahhs. xD lub dem man. :P:P:P lala. gotta buy tape 4 my toes..if not deyll blister cos friction mahhs. :)))

2006-02-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

Just ordered my FIRST EVER pair of contact lenses custom made for my eyes. lolx. im so super happy now. lala lala lalala lalalala lalala lala... (Doraemon theme song tune). hehe. Cos of my austigmatism so cant get dailies. got permanent instead aft much tots. lol. ::DD cool. hav 2 wait 2wks to get them thou. nvm..i have a mthly pair(w/o augstmatism) 2 tide over for the sunday performance. this may well be the last time Anggun and Yanhuangsong goes on stage. haix. evryone: enjoy and savour the moments we spent together. the tears(got meh?) we drped together etc. hey..I got contacts for this you know???!!! lolx tt's S$450/one&half yr mind u...$25/mth. ex hor...

..austigmatism is inborn..

2006-02-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

"Absolute Boyfriend" rox!

2006-01-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

heeex...feel so guilty 4 leavin mi poor old blg here by itself 4 so long le. decided 2 blg agn! lol. golden jubilee over le. lol. e finale was a total mess. at least 2 mi it was. it was so far frm best, or even 4 gd. lol. obviously e younger 1s dun understand, or didn realise. haix..mayb 2 dem performance ova den ppl sae nice can le budden s a dancer shld alwaes hav high xpectations 2 an extend. haha. nvm lah. evrybody wrk hrd.

sec 3 life start le. hw also start le. haix. hav sci evryday. n maths too. c mrtong evrydae. nvm actuali. he bcom more nice le. lol. quite adorable really. heehee. :) like his purple shirt. xD he giv quite lil hw lah..lots classwrk thou. n teach a tiny bit slow. budden ovarall okie lahhs. xcpt evrythin also nid neat neat de n veh veh clear wrkin. got a bit feel like p sch. lol. (:

class decided on cosine75*. at least majority voted 4 tt so we're fair eh? lol. nice name. i oso vote tt 1 lehhs. so cute name hor? den had bio n physics prac 2dae. obviously were l8 4 physics prac since gotta rush frm 1 prac 2 e other prac. so tiring. den e guys still strollin. lol. wateva lahhs. doesn matter. ended up me, jo-lin & ziyi r l8 4 e class committee wrkshp. soo...hahax)

2005-11-22T19:04:00.000+08:00

yeah! we finali finali finali sorta finished e choreography 4 finale 4 golden jubilee!! haha. but 1 thing is e music lor..got parts of it's still empty. mayb dere's not going to be any dance during tt part bahhs. lol. den e audience'll b staring in2 space bahhs. :)

yeah! although don realli hav solos like jiahui&cheryl but..well. haha. gd luck&congrats 2 jiahui+cheryl! :D

anywaes, gd enuff 2 get like a 1/3 solo wif juat&chrys. lol. the attitude jump&turn. :p then e last prt i gt sorta "solo". hehex) do a backcatch in e middle s an ending pose. gotta go bac wrk hrd on dis le. if nt w8 dashu remove dis den i veh sad de. lolx)

*go off 2 wrk xtra hrd 4 tmr!*

m

2005-11-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

got dance today. hmm...then feel didn't do well lah....cos got co, band, cl, el dey all all here for the combined finale rehearsal so i kinda don't want dance that properly because i noe e smile i give when doing that dance properly is like..gross..eek. sorry lo..i donno how to smile la..not like some of you peeps out there like munhan..smile until so nice lah. got nice face still. haix. i born unlucky. not pretty, bad skin condition, stitched lip, not-pearlish-white teeth, smile not sweet. haix..

rehearsal's like so bad for me lah..haix..so bad tt i wan post here lor.. dance practise on e hall stage la..den so squeezy lor den ask us dance..keep hitting jiahui's hand when doing de cannon part. kallang river or what dey call it..aiyah. heck lor.. den feel so bad, hit her she painful i oso painful lah. sorry jiahui.

yah..den we were at backstage preparing to go out lah den i dunno y lah...den i c haiyuan with co mah..den i was like asking jy whether she noe hu's haiyuan den tok tok tok den jy was saying haiyuan shuai...hmm...let me tink abt it.. erm.. lick lick finger... yuck!

den so funny lah..on the stage den see the ppl not playing overture some parts staring at us den i lost footing, stumbled the worst you can ever see..omg! den 2nd time e timing is slower den argh! i get e timing wrong! omg omg omdg.. i die le..ms leong mus b so disappointed wif me if she see lah...hmm...the 2nd part y dey play so slow lor...den feel so weird...den lost timing still..worst.. heng dashu nv see. lol...haha..

den part C of finale is like..crap lor...repeat e part B de. wat for lah! so primary school-ish den not interesting le cos is repeated de. sux lor..the stage so small cram so many ppl den still gotta stretch the hand long long de den so no space lah...aiyah..ms leong see dis den take me out of e dance le lah...criticise tchrs...hmm..*roll eyes*

feel i take things so not seriously lah...den dey sae is bcos i too serious le den too self-conscious. but i no myself..i am taking things too lightly. no time le. concert is 14jan den left veh lil practices. i noe i noe...yah...i tink i oso too perfectionist le lah. evrything want e best. budden sulao oso like dis de. so dunwan get scolded by him lah..he coming back dec. hm...not looking 4wrd to getting scolded. bleh..like i can choose like dis lah.

got 6 maths papers! 3 papaer I, 3 paper II. haix..

2005-11-04T22:13:00.000+08:00

yeah! starting Grade 6 tomorrow! mr ferrer! he LOOKS nice but strict. lolx. I guess I like teachers like this? hehe... just pray hard that I won't go in and start sucking. lolz. don't want to stick like someone who doesn't belong there. lolx.

Wah..thoroughly impressed by wahchun(sp??). lolx. he got DISTINCTION for INTERMEDIATE! OMG! I don't think i will ever get there??!! haha..budden nvm lah. coz i still have to w8 4 soooooo long. haha. but wahchun(sp??!!SRY!) still impressed me!

wa..yah. today got dance for finale people. hmm..ya, u may sae i fake lah..hmm..but then i feel a bit sad for hx, really. wd got a bit biased lah..why like Larae so much lor? i know she's BETTER than me. fine. i suck. but why her? and only her? so unfair to haiwei they all! hm.. someone muz tok 2 him!

Then watch the partnering dance. LOL. I soooooo amazed that I didn't come home with a disected head. haha. they so funny lah. jh keep accidentally hitting by on the head. lol. just feel a bit wu2 gu1 4 by. lol. of coz jh didn mean it lah, i understand. then we all start laughing and wd shushed us. hehe..

wa...sl coming back during hols. wonder when he comin back ar...pls pls pls, dun come bac n start scolding me n den kick me out of finale, PLZ! actually quite wish he wldn come bac, so dun nid face up to reality. hmm...haix...budden i noe reality loves me.

my other side is black

2005-10-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

lol. there are some things you cant say face to face. but i wish someone will see this and tell him.

it hurts to see him hurt. it really pains my heart. 4 more days but somehow i know it will be fine, ok? as long as your heart is set on something, believe it or not, god will grant it to you. just say that i dont understand, but even IF the worst ever happen(i know it wouldnt!) it's only a small part, ok? jiayou. it wouldnt change much! :)

dont, pls dont, go there and start crying ok? it will make him uncomfortable. cheer him up but dont over exhaust him ok? :)

yah. just one thing here. whatever happen, i promise you wouldnt be alone. even if the world doesnt care, there's someone out there who cares. No one is made alone in this world. :) you are strong right?

2005-10-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

serious disappointment + sadness. dun wan tok lah...long long story. my close frenz will noe. :) nvm. dere's alwes another chance?

i dun wan tok much le lah. stup crappy person irritating me...

2005-10-14T17:20:00.000+08:00

quite bz wif post-exam stuff l8ly but rch hm den nth 2 do le. hmm..quite sian actuali. lol. i contradicting myself lah. siao liao. :D
IP open hse tmr lah den tot i not involved 1 den cant c ting liao budden gd thin still got Interact. lol. hehex) i lucky. can go back sell ICECREAM! lol. den can nick a bit & eat coz mrs chan wldn b dere. lol. xD shh...dun tell her hor. lol. w8 she sue my den i die die le. ;) dis's our secret okie?
haha. dance resuming nxt wk if nv rmb rongly. budden hor mayb i rmb ron liao lah. i oso dunno. hehex). i blur gal lah. budden anyway if gt dance on fri(21/10) i gonna BON! lolx) with valid reason. heex) gt Yeah! awrds ceremony thingy lah, not my fault hor? @ least e tue one i go can liao. fan3 zheng4 oso no1 will miss me de lah. :( hahax) wangda gonna KILL me AGN! lolx) tt time e installation thingy den i bon so many times le den now bon 4 interact agn. lolx) heng gt br n by goin oso. n e sec 1s lah, yy dey all. :D dashu, promise u will wrk hrd ok? lolx) sad tmr cant c him...hmmm...sorta miss him. hahax) fun guy.
Attitude life going haywire. lolx( e Grade 5 thingy i tink i totally SUCKS lah..haha. den ms phua still ask me whether we want join e EOY concert. swt of her. hahax) not scared i ruined e whole thing. :)
ya lo ya lo, e gr5 centre thingy i suck at it all la..mm...esp e Glissades. I totally look SO like a monkey lor. haha. w8 till we do pas de chat den i gonna look like a gorilla. lolx( feel so self conscious. buden i now i can improve de den e turquoise gals cant laugh le. hmm..so wat if dey learn longer den me? haha i can do beta, i noe it. lolxD

i told myself not to
like you
or
love you
but
i know it's not
a matter of
2/3 days
i feel
i am losing
determination
you people
are mentioning him
too much
i tried
i swore i did
even if only a bit
i did tried
to not
like him
but
the unknown feeling
remains
maybe
in the first place
it's not
even like
or
love
at all
whatever it was
it remains
i believe
time heals
but
i don't know
if time
makes you forget
something
*patience*

2005-10-07T19:23:00.000+08:00

ya. if u go take a look @ lm's blog den u noe she's lookin 4 job lah. me oso leh. budden scared crash wif sch activities etc. :( mummy oso sae wan wrk den wrk 4 daddy, 1 dae 3am to 2pm she giv $25. quite ok lah, budden i feel so useless dere lah. i m slow, dunno wat 2 do, so i go dere i only noe how 2 sell budden cant hlp much. :( haix. look more of a hassle den hlp dere so i tink i can 4gt abt it. oso hor, dey nv scold me much, i wan xperience lah. hmm..

m lookin 4 a job, preferably dose type sales thin. i luv sales. :) lik eg selling things @ wateva shp. dun nid lotsa $$ budden muz end b4 8pm preferably coz nt allowed 2 stay out too l8. hm...i dun tink i'll fin any. :( so mux hlp me hor. haix.

xams ova le. yip yip hooray! yip yip Hooray! yip yip HOORAY! lol. ya. finally lor. 1 xam wk seems so unxpctedly long. hmmm...nvm. 4gt it. i tink i'll b able 2 fare well. lets sae...lowest...sae...B3?? mm..ya. and tt's applicable 4 onli lit bah. e rest i wan A1 and can tolerate 1 or 2 A2s..lets sae..erm..chi? i noe i gt high xpctatns budden i muz gt dem n i hav confidence. :D lets c. dun xpt 2 much if not will b veh sad if didn get xpcted results.

wrkin 4 my dream combi.

2005-09-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

hiyo. =D
just finished ard 1 plus hrs of geog. still half way thru geog only. hmmm...nvm lah. can finish. goin 2 make myself pia ALL the way. lol :D i tink i slpin l8 agn 29t. ;) 1st, gt tv watch. 2nd, gt enuff energy muz study. muz make full use of time lah. =Du guys muz do e same hor. :)

eoy hopefully i can gt gd results. :) takin a shrt break now. ltr gonna pia agn. =) evry1, we gotta wrk hrd 2gether k? =) jiayou. nth 2 kip me alert. juz my willpower. :)
tmr...wah. my intention 2 go lib study po4 sui4 le. lol. erm...lets c.. 4pm-piano. 5pm-ballet. 6.30pm onwrds-dinner wif family. :D yah. so tink i shld b bringin bk wif me hor? :)nvm, still got morning and noon.:) nite oso. =]

i dead le. i am all alone now. nth supportin me. no1 2 tch me anything when i dunno anything le. i gotta wrk alone.
like jo's blog, MUG all the way!

Ah..yah. almost 4gt. 5 days counting dwn. and tmr my lunar bdae. ;p

30/09/05

2005-09-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

hi. eoy coming soon so hueva drop by, JIAYOU! :D
ya. haven start revising much. still stuck with geog. :( half way thru e txtbk. =( sure die die le. i cant get wat's acid+metal or wateva + wateva e products leh. haix. nid die leh. :'(

wah..yah. moe server's down. in com lab now. supposed to do research but com dun allow anything other den blog. hmmm...

exams in few days. me bdae too. and jo's. :D rmb muz look at my profile hor. ;)

i don't believe in forever.
i just want YOU.
but no longer anymore.

2005-09-18T14:31:00.000+08:00

i hav a BAD life. yupx) get scolded in ppl's blog by sum1 just bcos i stated e true situation lah. dunno hu it is. budden we all agree 2 wat i said. haix. e person doesn't. so... be it. u'll c it's true 1 dae.

yah. rite. i m such an irresponsible, stupid, idoitic, flirtatious, suck-up, ap-ish, lazy, useless, hopeless, friendless, arrogant, proud, show-off, faker, act bi*ch. scold me all dose. i hav nth 2 sae but tt's not e truth. YOU are e 1s out dere acting like a GOOD gal in front of evry1. wat rites do u hav 2 sae anything?

Hey.. pe-lis-se... stop being a faker. stop acting like a tcher's pet. And YOU, sToP being a SPOILT BRAT.

18/9/05

2005-09-08T15:55:00.000+08:00

Sorry I so long nv update le. fan3 zheng4 u all oso dun care so y shld i b e 1 hu cares??
What rights do I hv to feel anything, to sae anything, to do anything i like anymore?
All of u jux tink of urselves. can u start condsidering 4 me? can u jux tink 4 me?? wat will i feel if u sae wat u r goin to sae?? huh?! u ppl just tink u r soooo gr8 frenz. in fact, b4 u sae i m apish or b4 u start apin me, can u jus reflect on urself? n dun act as if nth happens aft u ap me. i m not sth 4 u 2 vent on, okie??

ya..& u & ur 'popular' lil frenz. u sae i ap. u wan me to change. so i change. good. so? wat r u showing now? indifference? u jux sae u ppl r alreadi used 2 not having me dere. okie. fine. i m jus rubbish in dis world. i m changing 4 nth. u ask me 2 change n aft i change, u ppl jus heck. GOOD! so y ask me to change in e 1st place??
u r so fast in changing. u r goin at 100km/h. 1 wk ago u were toking bhind her bac. i was e one tokin 4 her. i was e one saein she's nt all tt bad. u r e one makin realise her bad side. NOW, u r e one saein how WONDERFUL she is! u r e one tellin me her 'ku3 zong1'. i m now e bad gal. u happy?

u ppl ard me too. so much power-struggle. so mani ppl power-hungry. sec 2 end of yr. is it alwaes like dis? do u ppl hav to b like tt? if so, i rather we r still in sec 1. when i still blieve dere r no backstabbers. no one is bad.
YOU. y do u hv to struggle so hard to try 2 pull strings wif seniors? cant u jus STOP tt? at least stop actin in fron of us all. YOU are trying 2 gt central committee. u tot i dunno? mayb u urself dun noe budden wake up! u r attracting 22 much attention le!

I got so much to say. I just dunno how to express myself. Yah. And I don't want to love you anymore. You are just not worth it. :D Still friends I hope? :D

I want I wish I hope.

2005-08-17T18:18:00.000+08:00

common test week so post very little. =D sorry hor. x)

lately busy with interact club installation(handover). Got lotsa things to do. looks so little yet dere's SO much to doo. Last friday bon dance. Cos Mrs Chan wan sum of us go hlp do deco n stuff. =D until ard 6 plus 7 den we go out of sch. =P

yah. congrats to me lah. interact club director of publicity. New commitee so i dunno hu e members yt. :D Budden nvm lah. soon will noe bah. by IU director, kk funding, sh com & club. I xtra hor.. =P

Common test paper still OK bahx). budden i stup mah... tt's y i dunno whether will do well. LOL. =) ok lahx)

muacks and byes.

2005-07-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

syf closin last 9t. went juz ok lah. den on e way home start tinkin abt nt bein able 2 dance Anggun agn. quite sad. budden noe its e start of our "new" dance exp. =D
yah..was fun lor. nth much 2 sae. a bit nervous. on e stage cant c nethin. budden i noe evry1 dwn dere can c evry 1 of my actions. so..feel lyk i blind. can only c e stage n myself =D
=) gd exp lah.
nth 2 sae.

ya. wan apologise lah. 2 ppl i de2 zui4 bcoz of mi bein so stressed up recently. :( esp jq, dancers, alamakees etc. rily sry. ;) ya. sumtimes i dunno wat tokin me. so 4gt wat i sae okie?? =) gt no rites 2 b angry or feel left out etc. ..

ya. saw e seniors, cheryl, christine, dey all de adorable-ness. lol. yest 9t on e bus. evry1 was so..erm...showed deir childish-ness. =) budden veh fun lah. evry1 crapped n no1 take nethin dey teased abt 2 seriously. :)

Buaix 2 sec 4 des.... lurveya lotxxxx... muacks. BB.

2005-07-14T23:17:00.000+08:00

hihi
so long never update le. sry to e ppl hu drped by eva so often but find nth updated.
going to change my blogskin soon. i am thinking whether to create one of my own or to just use one from the blogskins.com and edit a bit of it. maybe u ppl can giv me suggestions? :D

anyway, syf closing soon. it's 14/7 now and the performance's on 29/7. so...it's 15 days away...and only a few more practices. :(
yah...and i need to ask bomia...our blog...is it ready yet? cant see the posts leh.. LOL must update bomia blog anyway. :D

Next blogskin gonna be abt dance again. I decide most probably my blogskins theme will be going this way: dance, love, dance, others, dance, love...i think u c wat i mean!
Wanna buy new dance shoes le. 1 canvas split soles and 1 leather full sole. Both my old ones spoilt le. :) FINALLY! haha~ yah...ordered leather ones from sonata @ orchard plaza. Going with bomia to buy canvas ones bah...dunno yet. :) leather ones i brought BLOCH! love them much!

Yah...and I forget to mention. 22/7 got SAJC concert. 16 dances of diff varieties. forget they say how long le. :D nvm. :D

2005-06-10T14:48:00.000+08:00

Recent Updates:

Attitude Performing Arts Studio
Recently joined APAS
This is my schedule:
Program: ABC Foundation
(starting July)
Time:
Tuesday- 6.30pm to 8pm
OR
Friday-7.30pm to 9pm
Venue: APAS at Bukit Timah Plaza
So, anyone interested to join me?
school website: http://www.attitudearts.com
sounds like advertising? guess i m..

2A Class Outing
Venue: East Coast
Time: not sure
Things we might be doing:
Picnic, Cycling, Playing, Suntanning, Bowling, Swimming, Building Sandcastles etc
maybe get myself drowned?

Possible Ice Skating Trip
Venue: Fuji Ice Palace (JEC)
Time: 12nn? to around 4pm? depends
Things to do: Eat, Skate (duh?), Get yourself cold, get wet and fall downetc.
(go home with blue black)

Get new dance stuff
buying new dance stuff i think. 4 lessons at studio.
Venue:
OKH Ballet Centre
Tanglin Shopping Centre
#03-19
19 Tanglin Road

OR

Sonata Rainbow Dancewear Pte Ltd
Orchard Plaza
#03-05
150 Orchard Road

Same thing:
AS IF YOU CARE!

2005-06-01T11:56:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder...
y i even bother to force myself...
to say and to tink...
tt i "love" some1...
juz for the sake of...
saying i "love" somebody.

mayb..
rite from the start..
i juz like the wrd "love"..
and tot tt frenship is "love" or something.

now tt i look back..
mayb..
i nv fell in love..
ever.

so...
it's not..
accidentally..
in..
love..

juz wan frenz
true ones
ppl hu wldn
backstab me.

2005-05-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

my sis off for outward bound...
i miss her very much x(

sianx..
juz wanna run away from home
and reality...

looking 4wrd for dance
14 June
and dance camp
24 June
tink it gonna b wonderful x)

rmb dance camp 2004
is e 1st time u tok 2 me.
hahax)

wish to noe more juniors
dun b so scared of us seniors lahx)
juniors
we wldn eat u up de x))

missing u dancers...
missing u frenz...
missing u...

2005-05-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

exams over le
i gt back my report bk
out of 6 subjs..
eng, maths, hcl, sci, hist & lit
4 B3s, 1 C6, 1 A2.
haix
i jux plainly sucks
my results oso
hist drp drp drp
until C6.
so
i guess i gotta wrk hrd
esp hcl, maths, sci & humanities
jiayou jiayou jiayoux)
jiayoux) evryone

2005-05-19T20:41:00.000+08:00

go c wat i posted in bomia blog...
http://bomians.blogspot.com

2005-05-13T21:59:00.000+08:00

exams ova le =)
yippeeyippeehooray?
not 4 mi.
flunked evrything...
not a single A...
omg!
how did dis happen?

2.4 cuming soon
jiayou evry1...
i gonna aim high
ping1 le4 ming4.
5 items...
juz wish mi incline 'll improve
pray hard..

y:
1) ppl xpct mi 2 look happy
4 evry single dae
2) ppl tink i ap
e moment i look sad and dun tok
3) i m so hated
4) i m such an outcast
5) ppl r hypocritical when wif mi
6) cant we juz continue 2b frenz
7) muz u gib mi e attitude
8) m i not gd in dance
9) tchers dun like mi
10) msn hab 2 spoil
11) i gotta look like a fool
12) cant i bring miself to talk to u
like i did wif ur frens
13) we seem so fated
yet i dun tink we r
14) u r not s nice 2 mi
s other guys
15) i care
if u dun
16) it bcum a habit
4 mi 2 look @ u
17) i sae i like u
when i dun even noe if i do
18) i hav 2b in such a grp
19) ppl muz tink i m so bitchy
and flirtatious
20) do u hav 2 spread e rumour
when i trust u so much
21) u hab 2 hav "leadership qualities"
22) cant i b in a beta team building grp
23) i hab 2b so hypocrite
24) i onli noe 5ppl in mi grp
25) i was looking 4wrd 2 team building
yet i m not now
26) i flunked evrything
27) e more i study
e worse i gt
28) u hab 2 b so cleva
yet i m so stupid
29) cant i hab character
30) do i hab 2 ap u
when i c u while wif jx
31) cant i b a beta student
32) cant u juz b beta 2 mi
33) cant i xiang3 kai1 yi1 dian3
34) seniors like mi more
35) sec 2 dancers b more bonded
36) dance b like other ccas
37) do we hab clique
and it's serious prob
38) bomia juz dun care abt mi
39) cant u gib mi more concern
40) cant u b concerned
when i cry
41) sum guy an1 wei4 mi
when i m sad
42) treat mi s a clown
43) tink of mi s a fread
44) muz i noe u dun like mi
45) u ppl juz do ur duties
46) all e responsibilities i dunwan
falls on mi
yet dose i wan
dun fall on mi
47) dere's no 1 i can tok 2
48) cant i learn dance outside
49) do i wan a prezzie fr him
if i noe he'll no buy 1
50) i jux feel like crying

if u feel tt 50 probs still not enuff
den continue giving mi probs
wan mi 2 name more?
i can
budden s if u will read...

2005-05-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

exams cuming

evry1 gotta jiayou

esp alamakeez...

long wkend, miss u ppl lots.

n bomians

lookin 4wrd 2 slackin

again

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lotsa distraction

cant concentrate

so cum online n blog

n crap a bit

so tt ltr when go bac

can concentrate more

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i nid wong lee hom cd!!

ani songs will do

he rox.

calms mi dwn

n make mi tink of

my motivator...

myself?

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music brings mi bac 2 sense

tell mi i gotta do wat i dun wan 2

study!

revise!

get crappy!

lolx

n dose lurve lurve songs

make mi more lurvesick

miss ya ppl

alotalot

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inspirating =)

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i lurve u

~eva~

2005-04-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

put up a test 4 u ppl 2 try. i tot of e ans de. e ans quite cool. quite zun3 de. u ppl try dis lor. fan3 zhen4 u ppl oso free 4 a few min rite? haha~ njoi.

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Q: wat is ur fav color?

Note: dun b influenced by ur frenz hor. choose e color u lik n not e 1 ur fren influence u 2 lik. b frank 2 urself. coz u will fin tt u r lyin 2 urself. jiayou bah. interpret it urself lor. choose e more suitable de if dere is 2 ans. dis is to interpret how u wan ppl 2 tink of u as.

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red=fire=hot/popularity

orange=cheerful

yellow=sunshine=bright

green=trees=nature-lover

blue=sea=cool/relaxed

purple=mysterious

pink=gentle/girlish

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is e ans zun3? haha~ u dun hav 2 tell mi tt. u jux gotta tink abt it urself. u will realise tt it's quite true! 4 mi it's veh true. mi fav color is purple, blue and pink. & den it's true i wanna ppl 2 picture mi s cool, mysterious and gentle. haha~ so juz tink abt it lah. bu4 yao4 zi4 qi1 qi1 ren2 o!

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as if u care...

3wrds=u r wrong

2wrds=i care

1 wrd=yes

which is ur ans?

2005-04-27T17:21:00.000+08:00

branch out

a little further

reach out

juz one bit more

coz one day

u may discover

love is out there

always

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-i love u-

change blogskin le

2005-04-26T17:29:00.000+08:00

change blogskin le

dis one looks pinkish

budden still ok lah

coz got the magic words

'i love u'

as bkgrd

so sweet

-*-

aniway

todae eng & hcl paper I

gotta admit it's still ok

xcpt e letter of recommendation

i like a bit luan4

coz not enuff time mah

budden overall can

-*-

i dun like pink e most

gotta admit dis blogskin's nice

thou

budden act wish it can be purple

and still be dis swt

-*-

~when i fall in love

it will be

foreva~

becoz...

when i fall in love

it will not b

accidentally

in love

-*-

hao2 xiang3 hao2 xiang3 dui4 ni3 suo

wo3 ai4 ni3

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sick

2005-04-21T10:30:00.000+08:00

i m sick
fever...
fr yst...
dunno whether i'll b able 2 take home econs practical test 2mr...
haix...
was rilli lookin 4ward 2 it...
budden now...
dunno whether can go sch 2mr...
or not...

NEEDS OF A PATIENT
-medicine
-sleep
-rest
-concern fr her luved 1s...

howeva...
didn get concern fr him
doubt he even noe i m sick
haix
doubt he even notice tt i m not in sch
mayb jux tt
he feel tt
2dae 1 less person 2 bother him...

luv doesn mean anithin
or is it?

2005-04-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

i juz wan u 2 noe...
i mind...
i mind tt u dun care abt mi...
tt u ignore mi...
tt u ppl include mi onli bcuz u juz fu1 yan2 mi...
i juz wan real concern...

tell mi u luv mi
1oo...

2005-04-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

seriously, i m sry ppl...

i noe tt nowadaes i ap u ppl alot alot...
i juz wan sae tt dis is juz due 2 stress...
we'll juz hab 2 hope n pray tt dis will get ova soon...
s long s i pass 13th april safely...
meanwhile...
can i hope tt...
u'll stay 2gether wif mi...
beside me...
so tt i noe i still hab a friendship out dere...
which i shld wrk hard to maintain...
and tt someone, u...
out dere...
still rmbs mi...

luv still dere?
i'm not so sure animore

I M HaTed...

2005-03-31T20:42:00.000+08:00

haiz...s u can c fr e headin...i jus foun out i m hated!!!
went sum1's blog...criticise mi lyk siao...althou nt onli mi n mi name nt stated...
noe tt i nt lyk by evry1...budden...dis 1 came s a veh big shock...

losin out...
dunno y...budden i feel lotsa thins happenin fast...arun mi...
i cant stand e stress...

tok abt cls 1st...
1) cleaniness...evrythin bcums my fault...juz bcuz im e cm.
2) mr chng may b leavin us 2 teach sec3 cls nxt wk....boohoohoo :'( he's so swt...
3) tsts cumin...nida study hard
4) win in our cls...nice budden childish guy(no offence). howeva gurls in e whole skl's MAD & CRAZ ova him! kip cumin our cls c him...quite irritated...
5) sum ppl in cls quite fake...pretend lyk u budden bacstab u...
6) etc...

den still got lvl
1. ppl dun lyk mi...criticise mi
2. ppl tink i veh flirt
3. sum1 tot i lyk flirt wif her crush
4. fakers
5. cant stand sum ppl

cca
#1 seniors lyk dun reali lyk mi
#2 diff 2 interact wif juniors...s if i dinosaur will eat dem up...
#3 syf cumin...scared...happy...excited...nervous... gold wif honours
#4 c him flirt...
#5 rumours...

& still got summor lor...i cant rmb rite now...budden dis is enuff...4 mi...@ e moment...
sumtyms...evrytym...alwaes...feel lyk breakin dwn...
i dunno y...budden feel lyk mayb if i can fin sum1 i reali trust...him...or mayb a her...hu can understand mi probs, i can tell him/her n den i can totally break dwn & cry & scream & i dunno...
wanna curl up...in a small corner in skl...2 cry...cry...cry...reali cry...n wanna him 2 comfort mi...even if fr a frenz' view...i dun mind...i juz nid concern...real concern...y cant he juz care mor? all he rmbs is her...i wonder if he got lie when he sae he dun lyk her liao...i tink he got new dui4 xiang4...if not is still tt her...
n her...so ming2 xian3 she lyks him...she's puttin across e msg tt dey r meant 2 b 2gether...budden he dun lyk her le...i can c so...a bit...i dunno....she wanna attract his attention...

prezzie 4 her...
her bdae cumin...1 of his closest frens wan her fren 2 help him buy her a prezzie...budget <$40...
sae if not e rest of dem dun pay up...it's so ming2 xian3 tt e rest of dem means e other 3...including him...tt means arun $10 each....n i doubt dey...esp him even noe when's mi bdae...haiz

i wish i am

pearls from that necklace

beads from that bracelet

hanging from your neck

your wrist

going everywhere you go

the warmth of your body

against mine

your heartbeat

controlling mine

hugging you

tightly

wishing i am yours

your only possession

i noe i luv u

or at least i tink so